Bipolar and cognitive thinking

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Anyone on here with bipolar. When I am depressive or manic it’s hard to make good decisions . Spend money sex and other things I know not to use disability as an excuse and after I do things I feel bad later and wish I didn’t do them other times I’ll get so depressed . I take my meds go to therapy and bipolar and asperger support groups.
I pray for direction and help
 
Hi,
I was diagnosed with bipolar in '74.
It can take up to 7 medication trials before getting the right combination, so keep your doctor informed about mood instability.

You are doing all the right things, just keep at it.
I recommend a devotion to St. Dymphna. Her story is here:
natlshrinestdymphna.org/site/?page_id=11 It’s the most comprehensive site around, IMO.
If that’s too much reading here is a 4 minute video.
There are on line support groups in face book, yahoo groups, and other places. Face book has more than one St. Dymphna group.

Dymphna is pronounced “demp-na”



Good Saint Dymphna, great wonder-worker in every affliction of mind and body, I humbly implore your powerful intercession with Jesus through Mary, the Health of the Sick, in my present need. (Mention it.) Saint Dymphna, martyr of purity, patroness of those who suffer with nervous and mental afflictions, beloved child of Jesus and Mary, pray to Them for me and obtain my request.

(Pray one Our Father, one Hail Mary and one Glory Be.)
 
epostle said:
Hi,
I was diagnosed with bipolar in '74.
It can take up to 7 medication trials before getting the right combination, so keep your doctor informed about mood instability.

You are doing all the right things, just keep at it.
I recommend a devotion to St. Dymphna. Her story is here:
natlshrinestdymphna.org/site/?page_id=11
If that’s too much reading here is a 4 minute video.
There are on line support groups in face book, yahoo groups, and other places. Face book has more than one St. Dymphna group.

Dymphna is pronounced “demp-na”

http://www.ourcatholicprayers.com/images/xst_dymphna4.jpg.pagespeed.ic.Yjt88GRr2-.jpg

Good Saint Dymphna, great wonder-worker in every affliction of mind and body, I humbly implore your powerful intercession with Jesus through Mary, the Health of the Sick, in my present need. (Mention it.) Saint Dymphna, martyr of purity, patroness of those who suffer with nervous and mental afflictions, beloved child of Jesus and Mary, pray to Them for me and obtain my request.

(Pray one Our Father, one Hail Mary and one Glory Be.)
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There are so many things wrong with me with things like adhd, anxiety, bouts of depression, possibly borderline personality disorder, avoidant personality disorder,when I go a few hours without eating (more or less 4)it’s like this gigantic wave of negativity, frustration, hopelessness hits me to the point of sometimes suspecting i had bipolar (it’s most likely I overreact to hypoglycemia). Sometimes I’d like a face to face meeting with God, he could tell me what medications, exact dosage, in what order and when i should take them in order to be able to live life with a semblance of mental health, some long-hoped-for satisfaction and fulfillment. It’s been almost non stop adversity from day 1 (i.e. conception) from the way I was conceived to my mom wishing she would miscarry. I oftentimes wish she had. Life, God, judgment, hell, it feels like this horrible prison that I just can’t get out of. Can’t fathom why a loving being would create me (rhetoric question–>I’ve heard all the answers).
 
fladreamer said:
There are so many things wrong with me with things like adhd, anxiety, bouts of depression, possibly borderline personality disorder, avoidant personality disorder,when I go a few hours without eating (more or less 4)it’s like this gigantic wave of negativity, frustration, hopelessness hits me to the point of sometimes suspecting i had bipolar (it’s most likely I overreact to hypoglycemia). Sometimes I’d like a face to face meeting with God, he could tell me what medications, exact dosage, in what order and when i should take them in order to be able to live life with a semblance of mental health, some long-hoped-for satisfaction and fulfillment. It’s been almost non stop adversity from day 1 (i.e. conception) from the way I was conceived to my mom wishing she would miscarry. I oftentimes wish she had. Life, God, judgment, hell, it feels like this horrible prison that I just can’t get out of. Can’t fathom why a loving being would create me (rhetoric question–>I’ve heard all the answers).
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Also have doctors check for any underlying infections that you may have. I know someone that was diagnosed with schizophrenia with myriad health problems but had a urinary tract infection instead. Once this was treated and the person started a health plan to boost their immune system, they are fine.
 
lax16 said:
Also have doctors check for any underlying infections that you may have. I know someone that was diagnosed with schizophrenia with myriad health problems but had a urinary tract infection instead. Once this was treated and the person started a health plan to boost their immune system, they are fine.
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Great idea. I was misdiagnosed for literally decades like that.
 
Rosebud77 said:
Great idea. I was misdiagnosed for literally decades like that.
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How tragic.

There was a recent study on a group of homeless people and they all tested positive for bartonella which is easily passed through body lice (among other ways to transmit it).

Bartonella can cause many psychiatric problems in people as well.
 
lax16 said:
How tragic.

There was a recent study on a group of homeless people and they all tested positive for bartonella which is easily passed through body lice (among other ways to transmit it).

Bartonella can cause many psychiatric problems in people as well.
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Well, it made for an… interesting life as I struggled to fit in with a wrong diagnosis… taking the blame when I could not…When I finally got the truth I left the country… and am wary of medics now.

But I saw others in similar situations.When I was in a general ward once there was a lady being treated for a ling infection. She had been put in a mental ward and thankfully they did a routine chest X ray. her behaviour was due to the infection…

Nothing surprises me now. A friend told me her father was being treated for agoraphobia. I urged her to get a full medical done. And he was in fact in the very early stages of Parkinsons; treatable with vitamins

As for me; thankful be be alive. I mean that! A sheer miracle of God’s grace which I never lost sight of in all the years
 
I don’t like how I feel sometimes. And with aspergers as well and my seizures I get so depressed. There have been times where I’m so depressed I ask God to take me home now and then there’s times I’m happy and grandiose. And then times where I’m 5 completely stable and I just feel there. But it peaceful. And some people at church and people I’ve dated think I’m crazy I don’t want people to feel that way. I sometimes think I’m not good enough but I know I’m God’s child and he has a purpose and plan for me. Yet I struggle I go to mental health support groups mental health ministries at saddleback church celebrate recovery I go to spirituality support groups to practice mindfulness. I go to mass I go to the gym I try to keep focused and keep out of trouble. I realize I can be a follower cause I want friends and to fit in and other people that like and accept me aren’t religious and do things that Christians don’t like but then I want friends I don’t like being a loner. I live alone with my cats. I enjoy cartoons coloring books I’m very immature for my age I talk about bathroom humor and I guess I need to act my age and grow up and I get discouraged and depressed and cry a lot
 
As others have said, a fullbody workup might find something that can easily be corrected.

Bipolarity seems to be common these days, so there is every reason to hope that you can get out from under it.

ICXC NIKA.
 
Friedlander79 said:
I don’t like how I feel sometimes. And with aspergers as well and my seizures I get so depressed. There have been times where I’m so depressed I ask God to take me home now and then there’s times I’m happy and grandiose. And then times where I’m 5 completely stable and I just feel there. But it peaceful. And some people at church and people I’ve dated think I’m crazy I don’t want people to feel that way. I sometimes think I’m not good enough but I know I’m God’s child and he has a purpose and plan for me. Yet I struggle I go to mental health support groups mental health ministries at saddleback church celebrate recovery I go to spirituality support groups to practice mindfulness. I go to mass I go to the gym I try to keep focused and keep out of trouble. I realize I can be a follower cause I want friends and to fit in and other people that like and accept me aren’t religious and do things that Christians don’t like but then I want friends I don’t like being a loner. I live alone with my cats. I enjoy cartoons coloring books I’m very immature for my age I talk about bathroom humor and I guess I need to act my age and grow up and I get discouraged and depressed and cry a lot
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people are scared of mental illness and how it shows in behaviour, They can cope with seeing a leg in a cast etc but anything where behaviour is affected terrifies and repels.

Cats are great company aren;t they? Enjoy what you can? Rest in that?
 
Friedlander79 said:
I don’t like how I feel sometimes. And with aspergers as well and my seizures I get so depressed. There have been times where I’m so depressed I ask God to take me home now and then there’s times I’m happy and grandiose. And then times where I’m 5 completely stable and I just feel there. But it peaceful. And some people at church and people I’ve dated think I’m crazy I don’t want people to feel that way. I sometimes think I’m not good enough but I know I’m God’s child and he has a purpose and plan for me. Yet I struggle I go to mental health support groups mental health ministries at saddleback church celebrate recovery I go to spirituality support groups to practice mindfulness. I go to mass I go to the gym I try to keep focused and keep out of trouble. I realize I can be a follower cause I want friends and to fit in and other people that like and accept me aren’t religious and do things that Christians don’t like but then I want friends I don’t like being a loner. I live alone with my cats. I enjoy cartoons coloring books I’m very immature for my age I talk about bathroom humor and I guess I need to act my age and grow up and I get discouraged and depressed and cry a lot
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I’m sorry that you are going through so much suffering. :hug1:
 
Rosebud77 said:
Well, it made for an… interesting life as I struggled to fit in with a wrong diagnosis… taking the blame when I could not…When I finally got the truth I left the country… and am wary of medics now.

But I saw others in similar situations.When I was in a general ward once there was a lady being treated for a ling infection. She had been put in a mental ward and thankfully they did a routine chest X ray. her behaviour was due to the infection…

Nothing surprises me now. A friend told me her father was being treated for agoraphobia. I urged her to get a full medical done. And he was in fact in the very early stages of Parkinsons; treatable with vitamins

As for me; thankful be be alive. I mean that! A sheer miracle of God’s grace which I never lost sight of in all the years
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It makes me so sad to think how many people are misdiagnosed and how many infections are left untreated and cause mental health problems.

I am thankful as well. My health problems ended up being Lyme disease and coinfections. I thank God every day that I am on the mend and I thank him for allowing me to suffer so that I could relate to the suffering of others.
 
lax16 said:
It makes me so sad to think how many people are misdiagnosed and how many infections are left untreated and cause mental health problems.

I am thankful as well. My health problems ended up being Lyme disease and coinfections. I thank God every day that I am on the mend and I thank him for allowing me to suffer so that I could relate to the suffering of others.
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We were talking about this here,

The problem is too that once a diagnosis has been made, many drs after that take that at face value and by then if you are on medication the whole scenario has changed. Issue re side effects are there to muddy the waters. OP are the doctors reviewing your meds and adapting them?

I ended up on well over 20 tabs a day, some to counter the effects of others and all with side effects. When I finally got access to my notes, one dr right at the start had written that there were so many real physical symptoms they could not explain ie measurable.

Things with my life were heading downwards when I finally got a dr who cared and who took for the first time a full history and wrote under my notes. “Was never mentally ill”

I had had to make a total nuisance of myself to get thee and the grace of God held me.

Took me a year to get clear of meds.

OP please ask your doctor? You are precious to God. Believe that !
 
lax16 said:
It makes me so sad to think how many people are misdiagnosed and how many infections are left untreated and cause mental health problems.

I am thankful as well. My health problems ended up being Lyme disease and coinfections. I thank God every day that I am on the mend and I thank him for allowing me to suffer so that I could relate to the suffering of others.
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That is hard indeed, Glad you came through

I have M.E which many drs still do not believe exists, or is all in the mind. So I ask almost nothing of them and know how to manage it.
 
Rosebud77 said:
Great idea. I was misdiagnosed for literally decades like that.
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Agree.

OP:Sorry that you are suffering so much.
I find it particularly heartbreaking that people you have known/dated are referring to you as being “crazy” as this is a wrong thing to do and indicates their own judgment or fear.
 
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