Blasphemous Dreams

[Cadysdad]

I’ve been troubled for many years over a disturbing daydream I had where I heard my voice defaming Mary. I was actually in church at the time (!). I was stricken with panic and have never truly understood why on earth it happened in the first place. It came from nowhere. I wonder why God would allow it unless he was damning me for some reason. I’ve never known quite what to do with this whole thing and I’ve never felt as close to God as I had previously. I fear he let it happen because he might be unhappy with me (?). Can I be helped? Redeemed? Saved?

 

[1ke]

Get some help from your local pastor, you need spiritual counsel. You should also seek assistance from a counselor if you have repeated intrusive thoughts or compulsive thoughts. These can be a sign of OCD related conditions, including spiritual OCD which manifests as scruples.

The fact you are feeling despair and wondering if you can be redeemed when you have in fact done nothing wrong is a sign of serious spiritual problems.

 

[Maximilian75]

The three conditions for a mortal sin are
-serious matter
-full knowledge of the gravity of the matter
-consent

I know with situations such as dreams, consent is not applicable and therefore mortal sin is nonexistent. While I cant say with certainty you did not sin, it doesent sound like you fufilled all 3 conditions