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J_the_Centrist
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Hello, I was wondering if anyone can pray for me. Today I broke up with my girlfriend and there’s little hope that we’ll get back together. I never really trusted her but I was so drawn to her that I really loved her despite her telegraphing herself that she either didn’t want a serious relationship or that she was untrustworthy. She also came from another religion, one which I personally view with disgust and she always seemed to show that she didn’t like mine either. Despite these differences I would’ve married her because when we get along we really get along but today that all collapsed. Furthermore, I am estranged from my entire family and my neighbors and I am afraid that I will soon react in ways unbefitting a Christian man. I feel like leaving my home and leaving the state before such a thing can happen. I have always felt that there was nothing here for me anyway so I think that it’s time to leave even though I have no money, just a Master’s degree I never used. Reconciliation with the people around me, other than my family who view me as a charity case, is nearly impossible and I genuinely fear myself more than anyone else. I will be forty next year and I still can’t seem to get my life together, no alcohol and no drugs but I have been clean five years so it was a problem years ago. I also would like to add that I did all of this to myself and I take full responsibility for all of it but if I don’t leave now I think that I never will, unless it’s someone taking me somewhere I don’t want to go and I don’t want that happening. Does anyone have any advice? If not then please pray for me. Thank you.
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