I’m not an atheist…per se…though many theists cosider pantheists to be so…anyway, I’m stepping in because someone brought up the Jesus knocking, meeting Jesus etc.
I tried that. For years, repeatedly. Praying, asking Jesus into my life and heart. Going to benediction, receiving communion, praying in front of the tabernacle and crucifix, wanting what I saw others have…a close devotion and relationship with Christ.
It never happened.
So, what is a person to do with that?
What is a person to do other than come to the conclusion that either the whole thing is bunk, or that “Jesus doesn’t want ME, for a sunbeam”
How many years of hearing people accusing me of "not having enough faith, being tested by God, not really meaning it, doing it wrong, being in a state of sin…etc. etc. " is one supposed to take. It gets hard to beleive in something that never plays back. Yes, of course I’m in a state of sin, but I was always told he came to save the sinners…
Anyway…I’m OK now. I realized that the Divine WAS playing back, but I was so busy expecting it to look like Jesus that I had been missing the truth. Now, I see and experience the Divine everywhere. No doubts, no confusion. No atheism either. I never got into atheism, because I could always sense…something…but Jesus never responded to me.
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