You are Jesus’ sweetie!
That is what a Sister of Life always says to the people she meets, and its so pure and so disarming in her delivery, it makes me literally tear-up. Yes I am. So are you! And her name, Sister Veritas, is latin for truth!
So: Dear sweet heart of Jesus,
Yes, even this, Jesus can and will, and I believe already has, forgiven in you. He asks that we be contrite for our sins, and perfect contrition is that of being sorry for our sins because we love God and are sorry we have offended Him. You already have perfect contrition! I am reading a book called I Believe in Love, by Fr. Jean C. J. D’Elbée, based on the teachings of Saint Thérèse. Fr Jean says:
"I must add that a desire to love is already to love. A great desire to love is already a great love. In the same way that Jesus said to St. Augustine, ‘You would not seek me if you had not already found me,’ He will say to you, ‘You would not have this great desire to love me if you did not love me already.’ He cannot fail to fulfil, beyond even our greatest hopes, a desire that He himself has inspired."
This is my third time reading this book, and it has changed my faith life. I highly recommend it to you. I know many who have read it and found the same. It is very reputable, published by Sophia Institute Press.
When I am particularly stressed about my continued sinfulness and my lack of growth, I remind myself that as long as there is breath in my lungs, God has not given up on me, and as He is perfect, I am not without hope, and as He thirsts for me to love Him back, He is not waiting for me to return to punish me (that is a wicked lie of the enemy), He is waiting for me as the father of the Prodigal Son waits for his lost one. When I have made the decision to turn back, like the father in the parable who runs to meet his son and lavish him and honour him, that son who believes he is worth nothing at all, so does God want us to be instantly reunited with Him. And He takes all of our lost time, and all of our sinfulness, and He does not restore us, but transforms us!! Giving us even more than before. And when a sinner returns to God there is a celebration in Heaven. “Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous people who need no repentance” Luke 15:7
Peace of Christ little one,
Rebecca