I ask this genuinely and with no intention of arguing.
I was reading this topic:
forums.catholic-questions.org/showthread.php?t=371081 interested to see what the fate of Atheists is, but nothing specific was brought up.
Is there anything official that explains what happens to someone who has actively and willingly denied the existence of god?
Is it a Sin?
I find that when I compare my life to a Catholic one, I do follow all of the Commandments (to the best of my ability), and I am generally a good person. I cannot think of a single immoral thing I’ve ever done. Do I NEED a Religion? I find that on occasion some Religious people “commit me to hell” for being a bad person (as they noticed I’m an Atheist), but is fair? Just because I don’t believe in God, it doesn’t make me a bad person.
Credinci,
I see that you have already received some good answers, but I would like to address this from a slightly different viewpoint.
Recently I have been reading the Dialogues of St Catherine of Sienna (A Doctor of The Church). These take the form of Questions which she asked of God, and God’s responses to her questions. The answers are written in first person, God, as if it is God speaking. She dictated these essays during periods of ecstasy.
In a nutshell God, teaching through Catherine explains that He does not “Send us to Heaven or Hell” but rather we make the choice based on how we live our lives. In other words we accept for ourselves that which we have built up by our beliefs and actions.
This is truly the best explanation of the particular judgement that I have ever read.
From the Dialogues of St Catherine.
"**Wherefore, know, that at the moment of death, they, having passed their life under the lordship of the Devil **(not that they were forced to do so, for as I told you they cannot be forced, but they voluntarily put themselves into his hands), and, arriving at the extremity of their death under this perverse lordship, **they await no other judgment than that of their own conscience, and desperately, despairingly, come to eternal damnation. **Wherefore Hell, through their hate, surges up to them in the extremity of death, and before they get there, they take hold of it, by means of their lord the Devil.
"**As the righteous, who have lived in charity and died in love, if they have lived perfectly in virtue, illuminated with the light of faith, with perfect hope in the Blood of the Lamb, when the extremity of death comes, see the good which I have prepared for them, and embrace it with the arms of love, holding fast with pressure of love to Me, the Supreme and Eternal Good. And so they taste eternal life before they have left the mortal body, that is, before the soul be separated from the body. **
"**Others who have passed their lives, and have arrived at the last extremity of death with an ordinary charity (not in that great perfection), embrace My mercy **with the same light of faith and hope that had those perfect ones, but, in them, it is imperfect, for, because they were imperfect, they constrained My mercy, counting My mercy greater than their sins.
“The wicked sinners do the contrary, for, seeing, with desperation, their destination, they embrace it with hatred, as I told you. **So that neither the one nor the other waits for judgment, but, in departing this life, they receive every one their place, as I have told you, and they taste it and possess it before they depart from the body, at the extremity of death – the damned with hatred and with despair, and the perfect ones with love and the light of faith and with the hope of the Blood. And the imperfect arrive at the place of Purgatory, with mercy and the same faith.” **
Now -
To relate this in terms of one who rejects God’s very existance (the athiest), how can such a one reach out, at death, to either God’s Love or God’s mercy? Since such a one cannot reach out to those, (for an athiest, by denying God, denies both God’s Love and God’s mercy,) he Will reach out for exacly what he believes in - Nothingness and death - and fall into the despair of Hell.
By reading your OP, let me say that you sound to me like the rich young man who asked Jesus what he must do to inheret eternal life, Jesus told him to obey the commandments. Then the young man asked what else must he do. Christ responded that if he wanted treasure in heaven, “go - sell all that you have, give to the poor, come back and follow me.” (Of course the young man was beginning from a position of belief in God).
In your case, you have accepted the need to live a good moral life according to the Laws of God, even if not consciencely. You need only make the one further, and greatest step. That of belief in God, and the promises of His only begotten Son Jesus Christ. Then Following Him which means, not just accepting God’s existance, but doing all you can to build up, through faith and works, that natural tendency to rely on God’s Goodness AND Mercy so that when you come to death, you will reach out for these instead of embracing “death” both bodily and spiritually.
Peace
James