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cheezey
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Your prayers would be appreciated again. I am feeling at the end of my rope. Some help is coming, that roof should be coming soon, but this is all so overwhelming that I fear not handling it at all. It is not logical. I really thought that getting a roof would alleviate some of the feelings of terror, but it hasn’t. It is getting worse. I woke up this morning in a daze, which was great, but after 30 seconds, it hit yet again as it now does dozens of times a day. I received a report to fill out for disability, which may have exacerbated this round; a third person report, not a doctor, needs to fill it out and there is no one. From Saturday, it needs to be returned in 10 days and I am panicking. There is no indication of how my things will be moved out of the hellhole, either and it must be done in 10 days. I cannot convey how things like this gut me. I cannot convey how deep this is, which is why I need the disability, to get better help. Nor can I convey how much this is killing me, which perpetuates this. It makes me feel as if I am being pushed off the planet. I cannot bear this. I want to fold yet I can’t let go. My very existance seems surreal. I am frozen with fear. I can’t tell what He wants me to do. It has all been given to Him and He is there for sure, but I am grappling with how. How I pray and wish there was a human angel to hold me up for a while and direct me, too. It feels like I am not making it. Please pray as I cannot without feeling all this pain even more. That bothers me greatly.
Thank you and may God bless.
Thank you and may God bless.
. Amen.