Dear one, it was an ill-advised prayer, but not one that God would answer because He is God of love and mercy.
God knows you spoke in an excess of fervor, but you overlook the humble reality that we all sin sometimes.
It is humbling to find ourselves in sin, and painful, of course, when all we want is to be truly good and even holy.
To expect or pray for condemnation on the basis of our sins, is to overlook the merciful forgiveness that the Lord offers our repentant hearts.
Be mindful of what was said regarding the judgement of souls by the Judge of souls Himself, Jesus our Savior.
If you read Matthew 25 verses 31-46, you will see that He judges souls on their practical acts of kindness, or lack there-of.
May God abundantly bless you
Jesus the Great High Priest
14Therefore, since we have such a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we profess. 15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who was tempted in every way that we are, yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.…Romans 3:14-16