SpeedyPizza, Will a fast pizza that takes two minutes and run through a microwave taste the same as a pizza that is put together with love and care and run through a real oven at just the right time and temperature?
Hmm, good point. I should be more humble, maybe I should go to my priest to get forgiveness and guidance on how to do this better… Oh, that is right, I CANNOT do that.
Yes you can to and talk to a priest and get guidance. You cannot receive the sacrament yet but guidance is what you currently need.
Maybe I should go and receive Jesus body, blood, soul and divinity and that will give me the grace to be more humble. Rats, that is also closed off to me…
You are correct in that you cannot receive the Body and Blood of Jesus, but you can make a spiritual communion.* "My Jesus, I believe that You are present in the Most Holy Sacrament. I love You above all things, and I desire to receive You into my soul. Since I cannot at this moment receive You sacramentally, come at least spiritually into my heart. I embrace You as if You were already there and unite myself wholly to You. Never permit me to be separated from You. *
Amen.
Oh, I know, I can ask the holy spirit who is with me through conformation to help me with this shortcoming of mine… Woops yet again, I do not have conformation.
You CAN ask the Holy Spirit to give you patience AND to learn obedience.
If that is the case, great,** I can go and join some very easy, laid back protestant church and it will be the same.**
I see this happening all the time. You can go to the nearest church with a catchy name, say some words and bingo, you are now a Christian and saved, no matter how much you sin. But is that what God wants from you?
I know some people from other forums who converted to the CC, knew more about the Church than most Catholics, found RCIA to be boring, but remained patient and as the date drew near for them to be admitted into the CC, and receive the Precious Body and Blood of our Lord, the anticipation became almost unbearable and then claimed it was the greatest moment of their lives when it happened and never regretted having to wait.
Now to directly answer your question. To even say that I should be more or less anything right now is about like saying to a guy to move a house without any equipment. I know I have problems with humility and 1000 other things. However from the teaching of the church, I get grace to work on these things through the sacraments. Without them I am lost and cannot do much.
You do receive actual grace by being patient, however, you have to abide by the Church teachings to receive Sacramental Graces. Jesus could have made the walk to Calvary fast and easy, but He showed us the way to endure. Accept having to wait as a cross Jesus has given you and embrace it just as Jesus embraced His cross.
If you really believe that the CC is the Church that Jesus founded and you want to be a full member, then accept what the priest (and the Church) decides for you and accept it in love and patience and persevere. Remember, by the same token with anticipation we also wait to enter into Heaven but it has to be in God’s time, not ours.
But if you go and talk to a priest, it would be best to leave all the condescending remarks behind, or maybe express your current feelings to him. He will help you.
God Bless you and you are in my prayers.