M
maurin
Guest
Thank you for the apology. A Theology professor I once had reminded us very often that because of the Cross, Love is all about saying ‘I’m sorry.’That’s right, I should have read it better.![]()
I cannot speak for anyone else but myself, Sarpedon, but I can assure you that my decision to assist at the SSPX Mass exclusively was not taken lightly, nor in the heat of any moment, nor without a lot of interior honesty with myself.Hmm… so in an attempt to oppose doctrinal and liturgical abuse, they indirectly support clerical disobedience? Can you validate that this is morally acceptable? It may well be, perhaps doctrine takes greater precedence than obedience, but I would like to see some support for this.
I fully understand–to the best of my own ability–the status of the SSPX, and also of my own status within the Church. Try to believe me when I say that I love the CHurch, I love Him. I fail at my love quite frequently.
I struggle with issues and affects of predation in my childhood. Many years of therapy have equipped me to handle my everyday life, but sometimes extreme stress causes me to isolate myself and use myself in ways God did not intend. I was told repeatedly by many different Priests in my area “not to worry, the Church will revise Its Teachings on Morality.” No attempt made to help me to give my sufferings or my shame to Jesus on the Cross, unite these things within me to His Cross—no mention made at all of the Cross in Parishes bereft of any image of His Sorrowful Passion.
In these Parishes I was offered the wide road, not the narrow one. I had come to feel like the camel trying to fit in the eye of a needle, watching the men entrusted with my soul trying to size up the needle’s eye to accomodate my girth, rather than watching them excersize my soul to fit within the eye.
I get that from my SSPX Priest. It isn’t easy, I still fail, and at this stage in my “development” I restrain myself for fear of humiliation at Confession, and my Love for Jesus Christ Crucified, rather than anticipating the free pass the others Priests gave to me----with the best of intentions, I’m sure, but the old adage reminds us that the road to hell is paved with such intentions.
The Church resides in Rome in the person of the Successor to Peter and the Magisterium. If and when Rome says it’s a sin to assist at their Masses, I will be obedient. Unhappy, but obedient. But If I die tomorrow, Sarpedon, I have too much at risk in my soul. What I am learning about what it means to be human from my Priest far outweights, in my mind, his Irregular Canonical Status.
Have mercy on us, Sarpedon.