His presence lives strong within my being and unlike you I choose NOT to reject the natural inborn knowledge of God mentioned in Romans 1.
You choose otherwise and then try to rationalize your rejection with assertions that someone on the web canât prove Him according to your criteriaâŚthe criteria of someone whoâs already rejected Him.
Nobody here is going to do a better job of teaching you about God than the Catholic Church did. If you rejected Him after learning what they taught you, then you can reject Him again after hearing whatever some Catholic here on this site might tell you.
That fact that you need to be here everyday making an ongoing show of your rejection in front of believers SHOULD tell you something about yourself though, if you ever become capable of critical self analysis. The truth of Romans 1 (that inborn knowledge of God) still lives in your conflicted heart and itâs not going away. Your rejection is obviously not working for you or youâd have accepted your rejection and moved on by now, you wouldnât be trying to rationalize it into something else, and there would be no word games of trying to redefine rejection into lack of proof and youâd not be making a daily argument about it with Catholics. What youâre doing here is no different than an atheist whoâs unable to stay off Christian message boards.
Just because you choose to ignore your obviously conflicted behavior doesnât mean that it goes unnoticed by others. Fortunately for you however, MOST people just grow out of this behavior in the same way a child outgrows some phase heâs going through. Some take longer than others. The odds are very good that youâll give up the God-fit and be back in church where you belong. At that point, youâre inner conflict will end.
And on a brighter note, those who return to God after a period of rejection often make more admirable Christians than those who never left God.