Can't get no satisfaction

[WoundedIcon]

Sometimes I just feel like a… weak and groveling servant. I can’t find any satisfaction in Catholicism for some reason. In being a Christian. I feel like it’s all do, do, do. All anxiety and watching oneself. I’m tired of it. I can’t give up because I believe in my mind that it’s the Truth, but my heart just is not in love with this… I just want control so I can relax, I want autonomy but I know it’s wrong.

 

[ServantPD]

Well, if you’re feeling just like doing, doing and doing, you’re doing it wrong! All you do should be voluntary, and doing things like going to Mass and have the sacraments are supposed to make you live what is happening in full knowledge what everything means. Why would you feel obligated to do anything, that’s just silly and far from what God wants you to do. He just wants to build a relationship with you, and he’s not forcing you to do it. And it’s impossible for you to not like Him, He’s awesome.

If it’s about controlling your sinful nature and keeping yourself from sinning and all that stuff, relax. You’re not supposed to force yourself to be virtuous, you’re supposed to gradually become virtuous because you know the clear benefits of it; just like people learn gradually to play football gradually to become great football players due to whatever benefits they find; they just don’t suddenly become stars and perform complex techniques on day 1. And this doesn’t mean you can’t go out and have fun and have your own autonomy either, just go and do what you think it’s right. If you go too far, ask a priest to go to Confession and for advice.

Believe me, it’s a lot more freeing with this type of life than it is when you are “completley free”, I’ve been in that path. But them bottom line is to understand and appreciate what’s going on, and you’ll become very much satisfied. But don’t force yourself on what you don’t want to do, but don’t all the way to the other side of the Tiber either. Just relax, love God and things will come with time!

 

[JRKH]

Sometimes I just feel like a… weak and groveling servant. I can’t find any satisfaction in Catholicism for some reason. In being a Christian. I feel like it’s all do, do, do. All anxiety and watching oneself. I’m tired of it. I can’t give up because I believe in my mind that it’s the Truth, but my heart just is not in love with this… I just want control so I can relax, I want autonomy but I know it’s wrong.

Dear one…

Yes we can reach this point and it is indeed difficult. When this happens I remember that Jesus - God’s Holy and perfect Son - would withdraw from the crowds for time alone - to rest - to pray - to regroup. If the Son of God did this, then we can see that there is no shame in needing it for ourselves.

I care for my wife who is late stage Alzheimer’s. I love her dearly and I want to care for her, yet I recognize too that I need a break now and then. So - she goes into the Hospice (name removed by moderator)atient unit (I call it the spa) for a few days and I take a break. I go and see her every day…but I can leave…I can rest…others take the responsibility on.
When she comes home we are both better for it.

So - don’t feel guilty if you need a rest. I’m sure your confessor would agree with this. Why don’t you ask him…

Peace
James

 

[Lasting_faith]

Christ love you. He know you are not perfect, but He does not mind that. Christ know you need Him also when you don’t pray or even think you need Him. He is with you all the time and will not let you fall deeper then in His hands. Have faith, that is all. Don’t focus on being perfect, you can’t. Only Christ is perfect, and He is perfect so that we have hope for tomorrow and as long as we walk on this earth. Christ is with us all the time. Isn’t that a thing that make you feel good? So don’t worry, He is with us all the way.

 

[RoseMary131]

Sometimes I just feel like a… weak and groveling servant. I can’t find any satisfaction in Catholicism for some reason. In being a Christian. I feel like it’s all do, do, do. All anxiety and watching oneself. I’m tired of it. I can’t give up because I believe in my mind that it’s the Truth, but my heart just is not in love with this… I just want control so I can relax, I want autonomy but I know it’s wrong.

(Here are some questions you may want to ponder - not to share with us, but for yourself.)

Can you let go of the idea of “its all do, do, do”?

Someone was discussing with a priest being stressed about life and wanting to do God’s will. The priest’s reply was “Its not about you, its about God.”

So, Icon, can you take the focus off you and simply place focus on God.

Can you take the focus off anxiety? Can you stop watching yourself? Can you release yourself from feeling you need to " do, do, do"? Can you take focus off looking for yourself to feel satisfaction?

(Do you have a way to deal with anxiety in other areas of your life?)

Can you take focus off the “need to control”?

Maybe if you can refocus, release the “need to control”, release anxiety, release watching yourself - you will feel relaxed. Feeling God’s Peace is to relax.

God calls you to Peace not to anxiety.

That reply from the priest was directed at someone based on what the person shared and what the priest felt called to respond. Can you take time to have a personal talk with a priest?

May you release your anxious thoughts, may you feel God’s peace within your mind, body, and soul. May you be relaxed in His Peace.

 

[fred_conty]

Sometimes I just feel like a… weak and groveling servant. I can’t find any satisfaction in Catholicism for some reason. In being a Christian. I feel like it’s all do, do, do. All anxiety and watching oneself. I’m tired of it. I can’t give up because I believe in my mind that it’s the Truth, but my heart just is not in love with this… I just want control so I can relax, I want autonomy but I know it’s wrong.

You are experiencing the temptation of discouragement. Your tired and want to be refreshed.
The cross is growing heavy and you want relief. It is something we all undergo from time to time…the devil makes sure that we do.

The best thing you can do that insures you will never get rid of it, is to give in to it.
Because it is all down hill from there, one thing leading to another. As it has been said, “a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.”

“All you who are burdened, come to me and I will refresh you.” Jesus.

That is the real answer.

May God bless and keep you. May God’s face shine on you. May God be kind to you and give you peace.