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Hi all.
I take care of a family member who is partially disabled during the best of times, and is also an alcoholic who relapses simi-regularly. He is in relapse now, and last night he kept after me into the morning about vodka. He just went on and on. Exhausted and tired I started talking to him in a menacing tone. I threatened him with throwing him out right then and there in the cold. He kept on.
After a time, I suddenly snapped and grabbed him and tried to force him out in the cold. Twice. After that he left me alone and I felt immediately devastated over my aggression. Completely unheard of for me. I felt so very horrible. Not a peep out of him from the rest of the night. But it was from the shock of my reactions I a sure.
I am not violent, never have been. Even now, I am not worried that it will happen again, but the fact that it happened at all has sent me into a deep depression. What a sin. My transmission went out, so I had to by another used car. My account is overdrawn. I have it far better than many, yet due to my mild aspergers, I am now in a state of tremendous anxiety. I feel frozen, and there is so much to be done in shouldering these additional burdens.
I beg you to please pray for us, as I pray for others. I very much appreciate it.
I take care of a family member who is partially disabled during the best of times, and is also an alcoholic who relapses simi-regularly. He is in relapse now, and last night he kept after me into the morning about vodka. He just went on and on. Exhausted and tired I started talking to him in a menacing tone. I threatened him with throwing him out right then and there in the cold. He kept on.
After a time, I suddenly snapped and grabbed him and tried to force him out in the cold. Twice. After that he left me alone and I felt immediately devastated over my aggression. Completely unheard of for me. I felt so very horrible. Not a peep out of him from the rest of the night. But it was from the shock of my reactions I a sure.
I am not violent, never have been. Even now, I am not worried that it will happen again, but the fact that it happened at all has sent me into a deep depression. What a sin. My transmission went out, so I had to by another used car. My account is overdrawn. I have it far better than many, yet due to my mild aspergers, I am now in a state of tremendous anxiety. I feel frozen, and there is so much to be done in shouldering these additional burdens.
I beg you to please pray for us, as I pray for others. I very much appreciate it.

