ApexPredator,
You’re doing fine. Attend Catholic masses when you can, if you find a Catholic priest or chaplain ask to say your confession (they’re hard to come by even for ordinary folks back home), and attend your regular chaplain’s services and take what you can from them whether he’s Catholic or not. You just work with what is available to you and fill in the gaps as you are able.
You don’t have to do the impossible. Missing mass – or any sacrament – when it’s not available to you is not a sin. You just have to make a diligent effort to do what you can, when you can.
If you have a bible, a missal, or a prayer book, just read them over and over again. Get a rosary, and say the rosary prayers in your quiet time.
You’ll be just fine and it’ll fall into place over time.
Remember that while it might look stuffy or chore-bound from the outside, Catholicism is probably the most relaxed and forgiving religion of all time. Whatever you do or don’t do either isn’t necessary because of your situation or is forgiven just by sincerely asking. You’ll never have to look for a “church home,” because all Catholic churches worldwide are your personal home, and all Catholic priests represent your Father.
God understands and appreciates those who put duty above formality, as long as they have their eyes on Him.
Thank you for your service! Hang in there, just by asking the question you’ve demonstrated that you’re doing it right.
Regards,
gtd