This Easter will mark ten years since I entered the Church! Deo gratias!
I was raised Baptist and my parents were (and still are) fairly devout Baptists. We would always go to church on Sunday morning, and often on Sunday night (a separate service). Rarely (but sometimes) we would go on Wednesday nights as well. My father was a deacon in our church. We prayed regularly together at home, and I truly believed in Jesus, though I was far from devout. Unlike many of my friends, I never became involved in child or youth groups beyond the minimum of what my parents required. I was baptized on September 22, 1991, when I was 7 years old.
For my first two years in high school (and some time before that) I protested and refused to go to church at all, and told my parents that I no longer believed in God. This caused them great hardship, but I don’t think I was really an atheist. Rather, at this time (as is not uncommon) I began having severe periods of depression and mood swings, and my parents (so it seemed to me) did not notice, despite sometimes blatant statements (as in, “Mom, I’ve been feeling very depressed for several months now.”) I took out a lot of personal frustrations on God, but He drilled through the hardness of my heart and spoke to me loud and clear on September 4, 2000.
It was Labor Day so I did not have school. An old family friend who had Parkinson’s had died and his funeral was held that day. I don’t know if it was the realization of my own mortality or something else, but I saw how foolish and angry I had been, and I prayed for God to take me back; I know He did.
The next Sunday I went to church with my parents, which surprised them, but not my sister. She saw how much I wept at the funeral, and that something had changed inside me. There at our church, I made the Baptist “altar call” again and publicly professed my faith in Christ Jesus. On October 1, 2000, I was “re-baptized.” (The Church counts my first baptism as the valid one.) Since for most Baptists the act of baptism is seen not as a sacrament but as an outward profession of faith (an “ordinance”) there is nothing wrong with re-baptism,
per se. Some churches practice it commonly, while for others it is quite rare. At my church, it was occasionally done but typically only when someone came from a church in which they were baptized as an infant (eg. Catholic, Lutheran, Episcopal, etc.)
After this point, I never looked back, though there have been times where I’ve been angry at God and turned away from Him, without fully denying Him.
About a year later, during my junior year of high school, I began investigating the Catholic Church because the girl I was dating (and who would later become my wife) was Catholic. I don’t like it when people say that I converted “because of her” because (to my ears) that implies that I converted without regards to the truth, but only for pragmatic purposes when it was clear we wanted to get married. (That being said, I do acknowledge that if she were something else -such as Seventh-Day Adventist with the rest of her extended family- I would have likely researched SDAs instead.)
Ever since my second baptism there was a nagging thought in the back of my head. The pastor of my Baptist church had said baptism is merely a symbol, and outward profession of faith. It doesn’t do anything to the soul. It does not wash our sins from us. This bothered me, because I remember explicitly being taught as a child that it
does was our sins from us, literally. It wasn’t until later that I learned that almost all Baptists believe it is a symbol, and very few believe it is more than that. Nevertheless, I wanted to know: which is it? If it is a symbol, then it is not that important to be baptized. If it literally washes away our sins, then everyone needs to be baptized!
It also bothered me how I could be taught one thing as a child, then a couple of years later, be taught something else. My interpretation for what happened was that there was a change in pastors. I don’t know if that is wholly true, but from experience I do know that the dynamic and beliefs of an individual Baptist church is largely dependent on the pastor, deacons, and other elders/leaders of the church.
Truly, if there is any one thing that convinced me to become Catholic, it was not the Pope, or Mary, or even the Eucharist, but rather
continuity. Soon after I first began reading up about Catholicism and compared it to Protestantism, I was shocked at the continuity of Catholicism and the discontinuity of Protestant denominations! I believed strongly that truth does not change, because Jesus, who is truth, “is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow” (Heb. 13:8). So I concluded that for a Christian denomination to be legit, there has to be continuity in teaching throughout history.
It was at this point, as a senior in high school, when I had only been to Mass twice (both times a daily Mass), that I knew I wanted to become Catholic. I didn’t want to rush into the decision, however. So I continued to read more. I started going to Mass regularly (every week) beginning Christmas 2001. Every Sunday, I would go with my girlfriend and her family to Mass at 8am, and she would come with me and my family to the Baptist church at 10:45. Ultimately, my first year in college at Texas A&M I signed up for RCIA and was confirmed at the Easter Vigil, on April 19, 2003.
