I’m sorry you have angst over this.
I don’t view the Pope and Magisterium as “sole conduit of God’s mind”, I see it more like a big organization needs a leader and this is what has been set up.
I also firmly believe that if there are issues and problems in an organization, you stay in it and work for change from within. You don’ t leave (unless maybe you are in danger of death, which today, nobody is). I don’t bail on my Church any more than I bail on my country. If I had been born into a different faith I might very well feel the same way towards the faith I’d been born into, but I do not know for sure as that didn’t happen.
I do not think all Protestants are heretics going to hell (I would have to damn my own beloved husband and my nice in-laws if that were the case) but nor do I think going off and forming hundreds of splinter churches was a good idea. They took their gifts away from the Church, which could have used them. They created disunity. Maybe back in the Luther era there were good reasons for doing so; however, times have changed, and I see these churches now struggling with numbers because they themselves are hugely disunified. When I look up the “Dutch Reformed Church” and see that there are 15 or 18 different ones, I think what is the point of people having a church in that circumstance - you might as well just stay home with your Bible.
I am in this Catholic Church for Jesus Christ…I like Pope Francis, but ultimately, the person who is my Pope or my bishop doesn’t matter all that much to me. When I go before Jesus Christ it will be me and him, not me, him and a Pope. The Magisterium won’t be there. I’m happy with my choice. And I would never be an Anglican because their whole faith was founded not on conscience, but on the misplaced ego of some historic king who did not live any sort of admirable life and spent much of his time destroying things that had historical, not just religious, value, for his own gain. Not to be harsh but that’s how I feel (plus I’m Irish Catholic in background so if I were picking Protestant churches to join, Anglicans would be dead last on the list, sorry, I’m biased because of what happened to my grands and great grands).
I hope someday we can all heal our differences and again be as one. I would rather be one church with some people complaining and fussing and rebelling, than dozens of splinters. It reminds me of Ben Franklin when he talked about all the US colonies needing to be as one, saying, “If we do not hang together, we will most certainly hang separately.”
God bless