Hey, that’s not too bad results for a few prayers!!
First, to all on this thread I would like to say that I am responding only to C2M2C on this thread.
To C2M2C
Hi. As I mentioned before I was Catholic and now I am Mormon, been so 30 years temple marriage, heavy callings etc. I get where you are coming from.
I don’t think that there is a thinking Mormon who has not had their faith shaken at some point. The issues you raise are real ones, and it is important to get your thinking exactly clear.
There are many churches that are close to Mormon doctrine, for my money, the Swedenborgians and the Orthodox churches are to me the closest. Both have concepts of being married in heaven, sort of, and also the idea found most abundantly in John 17 that we will share in our father’s glory. LDS call this doctrine “exaltation” and the orthodox call it “divinization” or “theosis”. I don’t mean that those doctrines are even close to “exaltation” in the Mormon sense, but they are in the ballpark in the John 17 sense.
I know what you mean about history, both for the Catholics and Mormons. Anytime you have imperfect humans trying to live and teach perfect doctrine, you are going to have … well let us say “some inconsistencies”. The difference to me is that as a Mormon, you have a personal experience to hang your hat on. You have a testimony or prayer, you have experienced it.
So what do you do with the historic problems found in both churches?
At some point we have to come to grips with the fact that the only alternatives out there are basically “the philosophies of men mingled with scripture”. So ultimately, I find that the only thing I have to decide with is my testimony.
Sometimes there are conflicts with “rationality”. That is why we need “faith”. Really, no one can “prove” anything, or more to the point CAN prove virtually anything, true or false. But ultimately, I have learned that if I go with testimony, the rational issues ultimately resolve themselves. You have to go with what you know is right.
Historic “facts” in general are problematic. I wasn’t there, you weren’t there, and even if we both had been, we would still have different interpretations, different perceptions and different understandings of what had happened. You can make the case in favor of Catholicism, or in favor of Mormonism or against either or both historically. Who knows what really happened? No one.
To me, the criterion has always been, “with my experience, what makes the most sense?” Ultimately we are all responsible for our own salvation, and our decisions, and these are weighty issues.
So for me, the issue is to study it out and pray about it. Testimony is the most important thing. How do you know anything about what to do in life, after you study all the options rationally? How do you pick a wife, or a place to live or even a car to buy. You look for what works best for you, and if it is important, you pray about it, and make a decision. You have to do what feels right to you. To me, this is the “rational basis” of testimony. Ultimately EVERYONE picks even what clothes to wear by “what feels right to them”.
But that is not all that testimony is, and many on this thread will try to change your mind about it. It is not a “psychological” or “emotional” thing. You know that. You have felt it many times. You have received answsers to prayers and been guided. There is a major qualitative difference between a testimony and “just what feels right”. You don’t get a testimony about what car to buy or what shirt to wear.
You know the difference, and don’t lose that.
I will take on a few of the points you have mentioned, and we could go into them at more length if you like.
Study Nicea carefully. Essentially, it was called by Constantine because all the various heresies had made the empire nearly ungovernable. It was totally politically motivated. The pope was essentially constantine’s puppet.
Read the epistles carefully. You can see the apostasy already in operation. Read the early church fathers, and notice that largely they are arguing against what we would see as the “LDS position”. That is because those “heretics”, though apostate themselves, were closer to our truth than the “early church fathers”
Catholics love to cite the “gates of hell” prophecy, but if you read it you will see there are other intepretations. One of the most convincing is that Jesus was founding a church which would break the gates of “hades” by doing work for the dead. Gates don’t come up and attack the church. It is the church which is attacking the gates, and the gates don’t “prevail” against it. The meaning is plain if you read it that way.
One of the “biggies” for me in returning to the Catholic church, would be no marriage in the hereafter. As we know, that scripture says there is no “giving in marriage” in the hereafter because sealings have to be done here, in this life, not in the hereafter.
And then there is the analogy of Jesus and the church being married and becoming “one flesh”. Men and women are to become one flesh as Jesus and the church are one flesh. You should love your wife as Jesus loves the church. Why is that analogy there? Because that one flesh relationship is eternal, just as Jesus relationship to the church is.
I also understand what you mean by feeling closer to the savior in reading the New Testament than the BOM. To be honest, my favorite standard work is the NT. But that is because the entire NT is about Jesus. If the whole BOM was only 3rd Nephi, it would feel the same throughout also. My least favorite is the Old Testament. You really have to dig to get Jesus out of the OT.
Degrees of glory is another issue for me. It just doesn’t make sense that those who are extremely righteous would have the same reward as those who barely “scrape by” and beat their wives and get drunk nightly, but have a deathbed repentance.
And what happens to those who never hear of the gospel? The catholic church says that they don’t really know if or how they are saved. They have replaced limbo for unbaptized babies with “(some term) ignorance” that just states that they don’t really know what happens to unbaptized babies, but God will take care of it. How could a church not have clear doctrine about THAT?
And this idea that you have to believe exactly the church’s interpretation of scripture would drive me nuts. God gave us a brain, but I guess we are not supposed to use it.
Follow your testimony and keep praying. God calls all of us in strange directions, and I would never presume to try to tell anyone what is right for them, as opposed to some on this thread. But keep the notion of testimony alive in your heart, and keep being directed. It is ultimately all we have!
I am sorry about Utah culture, but I am afraid that you are right that it will not be easy to take all that on either. Move to California! No one would care, and right now houses are cheap!
At least you don’t live in Vatican City while you are becoming a Mormon!