There is a story you all should already know, I think it was about Augustine.
He was walking on the beach one day contemplating some weighty philosopical issue, when he noticed a little boy acting strangely.
The boy was digging a hole in the sand, and running back and forth to the ocean with a pail, filling the pail with water, and dumping it into the hole. He did this for some time.
Augustine approached him. “Why are you putting water into that hole”? he asked.
“I am going to put the whole ocean into my hole that I have dug”
Augustine said “But you could not possibly put the ocean in that little whole-- look at it — it is so vast, and your hole is so small!”
The boy looked him squarely in the eye and said “Augustine, Augustine, it is easier for me to put the whole ocean into this hole than it is for you to understand the things of God”.
Little children can have a perfect understanding of the gospel of Jesus Christ, and He has told us to become as little children.
You are constructing logical houses of cards that have no reality.
I wish you well in your quest to make God rational to your little minds.
Your language will never be up to the task. You are living in a state of illusion.
God bless you