Well I can’t make any new topics without getting various error messages, so I am just going to use this old thread I made. I’m sorry about this. If a mod/admin could please split this thread, I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you.
First off this might be a long story, so forgive me for the length and I thank you for taking the time to read this and allowing me to vent.
Becoming a nun was an idea that wasn’t new to me. However for a long time I never really considered it as an option. As I got older the idea came to mind more and more until the last few months I have been actively seeking this. I was very excited about it and started learning more about women religious, Catholicism, religious communities and the like. I have been reading the Catechism daily and have never felt so good in all my life. I found a sisterhood community that looked quite nice and so I sent them an email, I waited patiently and today I got a call and I was basically told to work full time for a year and then maybe try again.
I felt so sad, it was like all my hopes were just shattered. I know this sounds silly and all but I was really looking forward to this. I’ve just felt so happy and it was to the point that nothing else in my life satisfied me other then learning more about God and praying and going to church. Now with that call I just feel sad and now I don’t know what to do because nothing else seems like it’s fulfilling. Finding a full-time job for what? I’m not interested in buying anything. I don’t find my video games or watching tv all that interesting anymore, I was fully ready to dedicate my life to God. Now I just feel so lost and don’t know what to do.
I’m sorry if this sounds silly or melodramatic. I just needed to get it off my chest, you know how sometimes talking makes you feel better.
Anyways, thank you for reading.