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Lady_Love
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I need prayers. I need to be lifted up and supported by my friends at CAF so that I can face the night. I am going to go into what I refer to as “the Lion’s Den.” I am rather fragile these days and facing people I know don’t care for me too much is overwhelming. My husband is playing a gig tonight with my ex-boyfriend, of whom I had no resolve. There is still a lot of pain in my heart from that relationship. I loved him very much which is what makes this such a hard encounter. I don’t deal well when my emotions are stirred strongly. It probably would be easier if I had hard feelings for the man but actually it is the extreme opposite. I always thought that God would bring this man and I back together to be married but I was led to marry my husband.
I could really use some compassion around this. I can rarely speak of my ex without tears never mind see him for the first time since I have been married. I am going to be stuck in the same place with him for three or four hours.
I am terribly frightened of my ego which surfaces hard when my heart could be hurt. I have no idea what to expect. My husband is aware of my feelings for this man. He was civilly married for seven years and divorced shortly before I met him. He knows that I don’t want to go but he doesn’t want to go without me. Our dear friend has raised a ton of money for the Good Shepherd Food Bank through this gig and I can’t miss it. So please help me.
I could really use some compassion around this. I can rarely speak of my ex without tears never mind see him for the first time since I have been married. I am going to be stuck in the same place with him for three or four hours.
I am terribly frightened of my ego which surfaces hard when my heart could be hurt. I have no idea what to expect. My husband is aware of my feelings for this man. He was civilly married for seven years and divorced shortly before I met him. He knows that I don’t want to go but he doesn’t want to go without me. Our dear friend has raised a ton of money for the Good Shepherd Food Bank through this gig and I can’t miss it. So please help me.