Hi all and greetings in the Lord,
I wanted to share some of my experience in the Charismatic renewal and in particular, the experience of praying of tongues for the first time. I hope this is a blessing for someone who reads it!
Well, I didn’t think much about if the gift of tongues was really given to me at that point, but I did feel like a new person. Right then and there, I felt so open to everyone, like I had never before. I can’t explain it in words, but basically, I felt like I loved all these people whom I barely knew. It was wonderful! My heart felt so open to everyone. Very hard experience to describe.
Well, here is where the tongues come in. Sorry this is taking a little long to say. About 5 days later, I was at a completely different prayer group with some friends. They are not charismatics in the typical sense of the word. Nonetheless, they are devoted and faithful Catholics. Nuns I might add.
Well this young nun was preaching about giving Jesus our whole lives. Giving everything to Him and following Him with all that we have. She was asking us to be His discple in a deeper way. And on the inside, I was praying “Yes Lord, let me give all of myself to you. Yes Lord” and then…
All of a sudden I could sense this fire burning in my chest. It was like a burning fire in my heart! A big fire! burning, burning, Burning!And I know this is very difficult to understand, but I could see these words coming out of that fire, going through my throat and I began praying in tongues, right there in their chapel! but since she was giving a talk, I just closed my lips and resisted making an audible sound. But I kept praying these words inside and was filled with incredible Joy.
So!
LOL, I knew that it came from Jesus. I say this because I was in the presence of the blessed sacrament, while a nun was preaching, and more importantly, I was praying with my heart saying that I wanted more of Jesus.
I think that it had to be from Him, since the church does indeed say that tongues are a real gift of the holy Spirit and that the charismatic renewal is accepted.
Maybe it all happened in this way so that I could see how much love God wants to show me by being so close and personal in my life that I can expereince the Gifts of His presence.
May this story help someone who is contemplating the Gifts and love of God.