…Dustins dad…I am NOT there yet with this suffering issue…I am researching that one…oh of course I KNOW that suffering comes…but I do not beleive that we have to …say bask in it?
I’m there with ya - I know, I struggle with it too - big time. I think it’s totaly normal and and natural (and not sinful) for us to want to be free from suffering.
There is just something supernatural going on with many of the saints - something above the normal. Can be with us too - when we can pray like Our Lord in the garden…"
but not my will but Your’s be done"…totally trusting that if He allows the suffering to continue, He is allowing the suffering for a reason, and we offer it up in union with the Cross and give it to Him. He may take the merit and grace from that instant and apply it to a sick child on the other side of the planet, a soul in purgatory, or your kid who has a stomachache…who knows? I think we will on the other side, but for right now…we trust in Him.
With alot of the saints, they are so close to God it’s almost like they see through the veil of this world and can actually rejoice in their sufferings because they know and trust Our Lord in ways above and beyond the norm. Hey, it’s something for us to shoot for eh! We’re all called to be saints.
… ALL of the chruch fathers suffered yes…but for the sake of the gospel…Paul suffered yes you bet and yes physically , but from wounds he received from serving the Lord Jesus!
Interesting you say that…I went to confession a while back with a priest where I accused myself of “grumbling under the cross” with all the little (and big) trials and tribulations going on in my life - you know, instead of patiently enduring them for the Lord and trusting and hoping in Him for the big ones, letting them “get to me” in bad ways and slipping into a little bit of despair here and their…losing hope. To my surprise, he said that those things weren’t the cross Our Lord spoke of…very similar to what you are saying… Now I can see what you mean in a strict sense.
But the concept of offering your whole life up for Jesus, all the good and all the bad - including all the suffering and trials and tribulations and frustrations and dissapointments of this life. I mean, if we can’t offer them up for the Lord - I’d go nuts.
Anyway, I was kind of perplexed by the whole thing, and then I read this in Pope Benedict’s latest encyclical:
40. I would like to add here another brief comment with some relevance for everyday living. There used to be a form of devotion—perhaps less practised today but quite widespread not long ago—that included the idea of “offering up” the minor daily hardships that continually strike at us like irritating “jabs”, thereby giving them a meaning. Of course, there were some exaggerations and perhaps unhealthy applications of this devotion, but we need to ask ourselves whether there may not after all have been something essential and helpful contained within it. What does it mean to offer something up? Those who did so were convinced that they could insert these little annoyances into Christ’s great “com-passion” so that they somehow became part of the treasury of compassion so greatly needed by the human race. In this way, even the small inconveniences of daily life could acquire meaning and contribute to the economy of good and of human love. Maybe we should consider whether it might be judicious to revive this practice ourselves.
(Spe Salvi, 40)
Now for the BIG things - like what you must have been undergoing - I understand that too, it’s in a different ball park I know. I’ve got one huge one of those going on right now (involves my son) and a couple other ones close to it. Like I said earlier, it’s a very, eh, challenging time in my life right now. For those, we pray, pray and pray. A lot of masses offered for those intentions, alot of novenas, put ‘em on a lot of different prayer lists and groups, and just a constant “storming of heaven” so to speak with this. And* try, try, try* not to lose hope and fall into despair. And if I do…it’s apologize for the lack of faith and trust and hope and back on the ol’ knees.
And yet even with this - at the end of the day - even with the biggest of crisis and the greatest of sufferings…in the end, it’s…“but not my will, but Your’s be done.” I’m trying to learn it. I’m trying to live it. And it isn’t easy. But without Him…it’d be impossible.
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