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ThePuzzledCatholic
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Hi everyone, I’m back with a topic I’ve been wanting to discuss for a while. I remember when I first came into the Church a few years ago and I was trying to choose a saint for my confirmation. I ended up choosing St. Christina the Astonishing because I could totally relate to the struggles with being an outcast, a very sensitive sense of smell, and mental illness. A few months later, however, I felt as if I had been chosen by another saint - and not just a saint, the Blessed Virgin herself. Specifically, Our Lady of Guadalupe.
I’m not trying to sound impressive or anything here: I didn’t receive any kind of vision or heard God or Our Lady speaking to me. I just felt an almost unstoppable pull towards her and, honestly, I still kind of think it makes absolutely no sense. OLG is a national Mexican symbol, plus a symbol of Hispanic and Latino heritage. I’m the exact opposite of Hispanic/Latino: an exceptionally pale, German-Scottish-Irish-Canadian young woman who may have lived in southern California for most of her life, but doesn’t know a lick of Spanish and can’t roll her Rs (but I’m determined to learn it one day!). The most “Mexican” I have in me is a quesadilla I ate for lunch.
This may seem really, really petty, but it’s always puzzled me. Certain saints or Marian apparitions stand for certain things, and my life didn’t seem to match with OLG’s message to Juan Diego. The best I could come up with through my own feeble thinking is that OLG appeared to a member of an ostracized, conquered population that didn’t receive much recognition or care. I have autism, and despite what a lot of good-intending people try, I am very much part of a misunderstood and ostracized group of people. I often feel invisible and lonely, and I wish someone was on my side. I’m wondering if Our Lady of Guadalupe took me into her care because Juan Diego and his people felt similarly to how I feel in the 21st century.
Does anyone have any ideas or stories of being “chosen” or inexplicably drawn to a particular saint/apparition?
I’m not trying to sound impressive or anything here: I didn’t receive any kind of vision or heard God or Our Lady speaking to me. I just felt an almost unstoppable pull towards her and, honestly, I still kind of think it makes absolutely no sense. OLG is a national Mexican symbol, plus a symbol of Hispanic and Latino heritage. I’m the exact opposite of Hispanic/Latino: an exceptionally pale, German-Scottish-Irish-Canadian young woman who may have lived in southern California for most of her life, but doesn’t know a lick of Spanish and can’t roll her Rs (but I’m determined to learn it one day!). The most “Mexican” I have in me is a quesadilla I ate for lunch.
This may seem really, really petty, but it’s always puzzled me. Certain saints or Marian apparitions stand for certain things, and my life didn’t seem to match with OLG’s message to Juan Diego. The best I could come up with through my own feeble thinking is that OLG appeared to a member of an ostracized, conquered population that didn’t receive much recognition or care. I have autism, and despite what a lot of good-intending people try, I am very much part of a misunderstood and ostracized group of people. I often feel invisible and lonely, and I wish someone was on my side. I’m wondering if Our Lady of Guadalupe took me into her care because Juan Diego and his people felt similarly to how I feel in the 21st century.
Does anyone have any ideas or stories of being “chosen” or inexplicably drawn to a particular saint/apparition?