If it is by God’s will I die peacefully, it is by God’s will. If it is by God’s will I die a martyr, it is God’s will.
Sometimes I wish the martyrdom would arise again in the west - I always believed the Church under persecution was always the Church at its best.
I completely agree.
Personally I would say that the martyrs didn’t feel much pain… that’s what’s so miraculous about their deaths. There was this one time that something absolutely horrible was going on, and myself and my sister were just sobbing outside our rooms. And suddenly we began to say the rosary and despite the most hopeless feeling I think I’ve ever felt, this incredible peace came over us, to the point that we were smiling(more like beaming) and even sort of laughing. And for no reason at all I said, I think this is how the martyrs felt, and my sister nodded. And that incredible peace lasted until the situation resolved a bit later.
So armed with that, and a few mini-persecutions(all in perspective:thumbsup

, I would very much like for God to give me the chance to be that holy, as to give up my life for His glory. I voted for the first choice, such as being roasted, skinned, fed to lions, etc. Not only that, but it would be very nice to have a bit of time to prepare myself for death. Pain in terrible, but God takes the pain away.
To downplay martyrs and the wish to be persecuted is the very attitude that is destroying Catholics all around the world. Such as saying that certain saints were crazy, and were reckless to lose their lives like that. I mean come on, you call yourself a Catholic! They say the biggest honor is to die for your country… do you not find this disturbing too? Jesus told us, the greatest love is to lay down one’s life for a friend. I don’t know when or if it will happen, but I would absolutely love to be a martyr. For God to use me like that, to take part in the suffering of Christ, would be the most worthy use of my little worthless life that I can think of, be it persecution or martyrdom. Plus skipping some Purgatory time would be incredible.