I didn’t post this here yet, but here it is.
I was away on a business trip a few weeks ago. It was an all day conference. A few weeks prior to the trip I had been speaking to a female coworker about some of the trouble she is having at work. I had been trying to be nice an support her, and just being a sounding board for her to complain. I ended up having out with her throughout the day. Now I will admit I have social anxiety and don’t like being around people I don’t know. So she gave me beer in coffee cup to conceal it during the conference. I didn’t think much of it. The beer was helping me relax and I felt more comfortable. Later that evening many people from the conference were getting together in and hanging out together. Everyone was drinking. As groups of us moved from room to room I eventually I wasn’t paying attention to how much I had drank. This woman kept handing me drinks. Eventually everyone started heading back to their rooms and I begin to realize that the alcohol was catching up to me in a big way. So I went back to my room. At some point this woman showed up at my room as I was sitting trying to get my head together. I recall she told me that her roomate was sick and throwing up and she needed to get away from her. I let her in, not really thinking anything of it. I recall sitting in the chair and chatting, but not what we talked about. Eventually I couldn’t stay awake anymore and got into bed. I recall her kissing me, and the next thing I fully remember is waking to my fitbit alarm going off and my pants were off. She was under the blanket next to me. Panic set in! OMG what the hell happened. A few hours later she woke up and asked me what was wrong and if I felt guilty. I was still trying to process. She said, you know you can’t tell anyone about this it will ruin your career. She also asked me if I had any scratches on my back. I said no I don’t think so. She also proceeded to tell me how she had slept with her best friend (female) and now that girl won’t talk to her anymore. She stated they were drunk as well. I was in a state of panic the whole rest of the day. What did I do? I am happily married, how the hell did this happen. I didn’t want this or ask for it. Now since we had been chatting via facebook messenger, and she managed to get my cell number from a coworker that day, i told her flat out that i was devstated about this and I didn’t want this. My heart rate that day was anywhere between 95-120 and I basically stayed in my room all day. Normally my resting heart rate is about 67. I spent 18hrs that day with a heart rate above 95.
She told me i couldn’t speak of it to anyone because it would ruin my career. In a panic I deleted every message I ever had from her deleted her phone number, and blocked her on facebook. I informed her i would be doing this as well. She knows that I feel she took advantage of me. She said “that’s fine whatever helps you feel better.” I didn’t ask for this, but I am terrified of what she will do if this gets out. Will she claim I assaulted her? Who is going to believe a guy in this situation?
