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prodigalson12
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This year has been tremendous, it’s not getting any easier, and it’s been a case of doing spiritual battle in an almost constant manner, almost every single day. I’ve had brief glimpses of what is referenced along Christs peace, for the first time in my life, but those times never last very long at all. I now know what can be experienced, and scripture makes more sense to me in reference to it. I was told by someone that it cannot last with me due to the troubled past I’ve endured, and there is a great deal I still need to be healed from.
I’m kind of perplexed here, isn’t there any mediations, prayers, or techniques that can be used to be able to instill this inner peace? I was even confronted today by my room mate, he mentioned that he’s noticed I’m never really at peace, and it’s not something I can just put on a happy face and pretend to be there when clearly it’s not. I guess part of that assumption as well, I never smile, and I’m told I appear too serious, I have many reasons for not doing so, but that’s just me, I can be happy, but still not show it, and smiling is something that is awkward for me to do, so I just don’t bother.
I had this one week, where the feeling of peace was very strong, I was even starting to feel that joy which is spoken of, and trying to retrace my steps never worked, so I’m at a loss with this for now.
I’m kind of perplexed here, isn’t there any mediations, prayers, or techniques that can be used to be able to instill this inner peace? I was even confronted today by my room mate, he mentioned that he’s noticed I’m never really at peace, and it’s not something I can just put on a happy face and pretend to be there when clearly it’s not. I guess part of that assumption as well, I never smile, and I’m told I appear too serious, I have many reasons for not doing so, but that’s just me, I can be happy, but still not show it, and smiling is something that is awkward for me to do, so I just don’t bother.
I had this one week, where the feeling of peace was very strong, I was even starting to feel that joy which is spoken of, and trying to retrace my steps never worked, so I’m at a loss with this for now.