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SarahB85
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A short back story…I haven’t considered myself Catholic in over 10 years. Out of the blue, about 6 months ago, I started to feel drawn back. It’s a shock and surprise that I’m still not over, frankly. I currently attend a Methodist church that my best friend is the pastor of after leaving a Pentecostal church over a year ago. I attended Mass by myself(meaning I wasn’t going with my mom who I have begrudingly taken to church almost every week since I left as a teenager) on Tuesday night for a celebratory Mass for Pope Francis. I confess that it’s really our new Holy Father being chosen which has prompted me to finally get serious about what I’ve been feeling over the last few months…which brings me to the reason for my prayer request. Obviously, I haven’t gone to confession in a very long time. For years I was completely against it. Now that I’m coming back I know that I have to go, and I’m ok with that. In theory. I’ve been gearing myself up to go this week so that I’m ready for Easter. There’s a group of priests who will be at a church around the corner from my house tonight and if I get home from work in time I’ve been planning on going, or if I can’t make it tonight on Saturday morning. And now I’m nervous. And scared. And wondering what in the world I’m getting myself into. I’ve been thinking of sins I’ve committed for days now, because lets face it…10 years is a long time to not have gone to confession. Maybe I’m overthinking it and causing myself too much stress. I guess I’ll just worry that I’ll forget lots of stuff. Or that I’ll be in there forever because I won’t forget anything. And a million other things.
So please pray for me that I’ll have the courage to go, and to be completely open and honest. The good thing is that my mom knows the priest at the church and he knows a bit about my story and about my leaving the Church and he’s always been very nice to me and understanding. It’s the one thing I feel like I have going for me right now.
Thanks.
Thanks.
Amen