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Nun_ofthe_Above
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4 months ago, I was perfectly happy. I was looking foward to Easter, and becoming one with the Body of Christ (and all that entails). Ok, I had a few issues, but nothing serious enough to impede my confession of faith at the time of my baptism.
Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on the perspective), either God decided I needed to be reeeeeeeeeeeeally certain of the commitment I was contemplating, or else Satan had fastened his reigns to me; I don’t know which, but I’m hoping it was God testing me, pushing me to delve even deeper into the faith.
The past few months have been pure torture (Intermittently sprinkled with rays of false hope). Everything I believed in, was called into question. I felt a huge need to get back to the Bible and the Early Church, so I read and read; unfortunately, I kept reading things which seemed to refute Catholicism. The more I read, the more I decided Catholicism had vered too far off course from the Early Church, so I started reading, and decided that I would look into Lutheranism, as it seemed closer to the truth. During this brief phase, I felt a modecum of comfort, but for some reason, everytime I went to the Church, no one would be there, or they would be in the middle of something and I felt compelled not to interupt, so would leave, with them totally oblivious to my pesence. I feel God had a hand in this; knowing that eventually I would discover the truth.
I continued to read, and for some reason, in the past two days, I have discovered that so called ‘proofs’ were misrepresented, by leaving necessary details out, etc.
The crux of the matter is, that finally, I have found my way back to the Church. There are many factors in this decision, not least of all, St. Irenaeus’ Books ‘Against Heresies’ Some of the ‘quotes’ that were used against aspects of the Catholic Church, were from Irenaeus, but once I read Irenaeus for myself, I discovered he was quoted out of context; leaving relevent details out.
The past months have seen me lament my severed ties with Catholicism, but now I can rejoice in the reunion, which is long overdue; but whilst I am cross I wasted this time, in one respect, in another, I am grateful I had the opportnity to truly find out what Jesus, the Apostles and the very earliest Church Fathers taught. I can also say in all honesty that I believe in the One, Holy, Catholic and Apostolic Church, as it is meant by the Catholic Church.
Thank you for your prayers and kind words; they have been most appeciated in this difficult time.
Peace and Love to you all
Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on the perspective), either God decided I needed to be reeeeeeeeeeeeally certain of the commitment I was contemplating, or else Satan had fastened his reigns to me; I don’t know which, but I’m hoping it was God testing me, pushing me to delve even deeper into the faith.
The past few months have been pure torture (Intermittently sprinkled with rays of false hope). Everything I believed in, was called into question. I felt a huge need to get back to the Bible and the Early Church, so I read and read; unfortunately, I kept reading things which seemed to refute Catholicism. The more I read, the more I decided Catholicism had vered too far off course from the Early Church, so I started reading, and decided that I would look into Lutheranism, as it seemed closer to the truth. During this brief phase, I felt a modecum of comfort, but for some reason, everytime I went to the Church, no one would be there, or they would be in the middle of something and I felt compelled not to interupt, so would leave, with them totally oblivious to my pesence. I feel God had a hand in this; knowing that eventually I would discover the truth.
I continued to read, and for some reason, in the past two days, I have discovered that so called ‘proofs’ were misrepresented, by leaving necessary details out, etc.
The crux of the matter is, that finally, I have found my way back to the Church. There are many factors in this decision, not least of all, St. Irenaeus’ Books ‘Against Heresies’ Some of the ‘quotes’ that were used against aspects of the Catholic Church, were from Irenaeus, but once I read Irenaeus for myself, I discovered he was quoted out of context; leaving relevent details out.
The past months have seen me lament my severed ties with Catholicism, but now I can rejoice in the reunion, which is long overdue; but whilst I am cross I wasted this time, in one respect, in another, I am grateful I had the opportnity to truly find out what Jesus, the Apostles and the very earliest Church Fathers taught. I can also say in all honesty that I believe in the One, Holy, Catholic and Apostolic Church, as it is meant by the Catholic Church.
Thank you for your prayers and kind words; they have been most appeciated in this difficult time.
Peace and Love to you all
) I will have to make an effort to do it more
