Did you partake of both species?
I’ve often found myself conflicted by this. Growing up, and for the majority of my time as a Catholic, the churches I attended (my own and a couple of visiting parishes) only partook in the one species (body). Then abruptly near the end of my time at the parish I spent the bulk of my Catholic life as a member, they added the second species (blood). But for some reason I never partook, and neither did the majority of the congregation. Don’t know if it was due to habit or something else, but it never felt right to partake of the cup. The next parish I was a member of seemed to have been providing both species for a longer period of time and the majority of the congregants did partake in both, though I still refrained from taking the cup as by again it never felt right.
Even after I left the Catholic church and drifted for a long while before finding my way to my current faith home, I still do not partake of the cup to this day at my Episcopal Church. I’ve noticed I’m not the only one, though the majority of my Episcopal congregation partakes in both the bread/body and wine/blood (though the Episcopal church doesn’t require one to partake in both as one or the other is considered a full communion). I prefer to simply hear the words with the cup and receive a blessing instead after having partaken of the first species.