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ErinMagdala
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Hello Everyone.
I am new to Catholicism as after I received my First Communion, my parents ceased my instruction in the ways of the Catholic church. I fell away from God at the ripe age of eight, and have committed almost every mortal sin (except murder) since then. I was married outside of the church about 1.5 years ago. In the past month or so I have felt an incredibly strong and spontaneous pull back to Christ and have been desperately been trying to fix my relationship with the Lord and return to his church. Since I am married outside of the church, I must have my marriage blessed before confessing to the priest which he estimates will take about six months. My faith in the Lord is very strong right now, and the sins are weighing heavily on my mind. My priest told me that in the time being I should complete an Act of Perfect Contrition “just in case.”
I did not know about Perfect Contrition before, but now I realize I have been saying an informal ,personal version every night since the renewal of my faith. Last night I had a rather strange experience while completing my act of contrition and I’d like if you could tell me if this “counts.”
I was talking to God and telling him that I was truly sorry for hurting him and doing wrong in his name. I told him I understand how much sin hurts him as he is all good, and that I am thankful for the sacrifice of Jesus that he suffered for my sin that I may be forgiven.
Now here’s the weird aspect:
Right as I was about to recite the act of perfect contrition, I fell asleep.
I had a very intense and detailed dream that I was crying at the Lord’s feet and begging him to forgive me for wronging him. I went over the scenes of the passion in my mind and felt a heartbreaking sorrow for falling out of grace in God’s eyes. Afterwards,** I remember very clearly speaking the act of perfect contrition in my dream.** Usually I would say that dreams are random, but considering the very personal nature of the dream and its relevance to what I was doing when I feel asleep, I think that this was most likely my subconscious expressing my feelings on the matter. **Does the fact that I feel asleep negate the validity of my prayer, or do you think it “counts” because my subconscious tried to “continue” it in my dream? **
I am new to Catholicism as after I received my First Communion, my parents ceased my instruction in the ways of the Catholic church. I fell away from God at the ripe age of eight, and have committed almost every mortal sin (except murder) since then. I was married outside of the church about 1.5 years ago. In the past month or so I have felt an incredibly strong and spontaneous pull back to Christ and have been desperately been trying to fix my relationship with the Lord and return to his church. Since I am married outside of the church, I must have my marriage blessed before confessing to the priest which he estimates will take about six months. My faith in the Lord is very strong right now, and the sins are weighing heavily on my mind. My priest told me that in the time being I should complete an Act of Perfect Contrition “just in case.”
I did not know about Perfect Contrition before, but now I realize I have been saying an informal ,personal version every night since the renewal of my faith. Last night I had a rather strange experience while completing my act of contrition and I’d like if you could tell me if this “counts.”
I was talking to God and telling him that I was truly sorry for hurting him and doing wrong in his name. I told him I understand how much sin hurts him as he is all good, and that I am thankful for the sacrifice of Jesus that he suffered for my sin that I may be forgiven.
Now here’s the weird aspect:
Right as I was about to recite the act of perfect contrition, I fell asleep.
I had a very intense and detailed dream that I was crying at the Lord’s feet and begging him to forgive me for wronging him. I went over the scenes of the passion in my mind and felt a heartbreaking sorrow for falling out of grace in God’s eyes. Afterwards,** I remember very clearly speaking the act of perfect contrition in my dream.** Usually I would say that dreams are random, but considering the very personal nature of the dream and its relevance to what I was doing when I feel asleep, I think that this was most likely my subconscious expressing my feelings on the matter. **Does the fact that I feel asleep negate the validity of my prayer, or do you think it “counts” because my subconscious tried to “continue” it in my dream? **
