Confused

[Christine85]

I hope I don’t get banned for being too upfront, but I just want to tell you that when I first experienced the desire to become a nun, it shocked me, I couldn’t believe that I had even had that thought, and I actually pushed it aside. Hoping that it would not come back (God forgive me!!) But then the thought and excitement of the possibility came back to me, and I realized it was something I had to seriously consider. My main concern was , what would my family think? After thinking about the idea a lot, and praying a lot, I felt that saying yes to that idea of being a nun gave me a peace I don’t think I had ever felt before. It took a few times of changing my mind, but I can most safely say now, that I really do want to be a nun.

I had the feelings similar to what I think you are going through about, how I had wanted to be a mother etc. But I now resolve that nothing could compare to a life as a nun dedicated to God and totally belonging to God, I realized that all my life I actually think I had been looking for this.

Though, I think if you choose not to be a nun , God will not be angry. As some previous posters have said maybe this is just a test of your faith. It could be to make you think about your spiritual life more perhaps. I’m not going to try and convince you to become a nun, I just wanted to share my story hoping that it might give you some clarity.

I think the best things you could do, is get a trained spiritual director, if that will take some time speak to a Priest you trust. Try and attend daily Mass, exposition as often as possible, and pray the Rosary when you can.

I will keep you in my prayers,
In Christ through Mary, Christine +++ God bless you

 

[kiqueen]

I know exactly what you are feeling. I feel it pretty much every day, except a little bit differently. This weekend, though, I had a terribly amazing experience in adoration at a youth conference, and I realized something. I realized that I don’t have to know all the answers. I always wanted to, cause I’m kinda a control freak that way, but I don’t have to know until God is ready to tell me.

I encourage you to pray about you vocation, but pray about it in a spirit of humility, obedience and surrender, recognizing that you don’t necessarily need to know right now and God will tell you when the time comes. I have found peace in not knowing, and I think that you may be able to find that peace as well.

May God bless you and Christ’s peace find you.

 

[rose_msf]

I’ve always wanted marriage more than anything in the world. There has always been the desire in me to find a good godly man, marry him, stand by him no matter what, and give our children the Catholic faith that we’ve always firmly believed in.I’ve prayed almost every day since I was little about it. However,within the past year or so, however,there are times when I wonder if I have to give up those hopes and, in the words of St. Terese (although maybe not as drastically), “Go to the desert.” I wonder if God is calling me to be devoted entirely to him as a nun. And if my dreams are fruitless.

It’s very normal for a woman to want to be married, have a wonderful husband and children; have a good loving catholic family. Nothing wrong with that. Before I became a religious sister, I was the same way. Remember, Jesus said that whoever leaves mother or father or children or possessions for His sake and follows Him receives a hundred fold more mothers, fathers and children…I think, perhaps give it a thought if you feel Jesus is calling you to be a nun.

 

[Pfaffenhoffen]

You are welcome.

On another note, I’m curious. When you quoted my post #12, you edited the quote to take all four capitalizations out of it. Why? No big deal, but I did a double-take when I saw it since I normally capitalize as needed. Are you an anti-capitalite ala Seinfeld?

Had to look who Seinfeld is.
Capitalizations that are too much lose value…