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Thoughtfulone
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O.K., so I’ve been having some issues with the CC lately. I agree with the CC on most things. The Nicene creed reflects my beliefs accurately. However, there are certain things where we part ways. For example, the CC might say that one particular “sin” involves “grave matter”, making it a mortal sin, when my conscience tells me that a certain act does not rise to that level, if sinful at all (contraception is a good example, especially where the health of the mother is at stake). I also disagree with the CC regarding indulgences. I think the idea that the Church knows what actions grant partial or plenary indulgences is strange to say the least.
Anyway, the CC basically says that if I disagree with them on matters of conscience, then my conscience is improperly formed. O.K. So I go about trying to adjust my conscience through prayer, research and reflection and still that darned conscience is awfully stubborn. Now what? Well, some tell me that I need to practice the virtue of obedience and just do what the CC says regardless (this rings untrue to me, blindly following something I may not believe in) while others say that church teaching tells me that I am obligated to follow my conscience (which sounds right to me). Well, I can’t do both, obviously. I love my Church, I really do, but I am having much difficulty reconciling myself to this issue.
Also, If my conscience really tells me that something is not sinful (or at least mortally so) because I do not truly believe it to fall under “grave matter” after MUCH prayer and reflection, then am I still in a state of mortal sin if I follow my own conscience on the matter and not church teaching? I mean, I am not deliberately committing a mortal sin right, so the conditions are not met? Or are they? I am so confused!
I love my Church, but I am feeling increasingly frustrated. I cannot CONTROL my conscience, I can only do my due diligence in trying to form it in accordance with God’s will, which I believe I am doing/have done, but people on this site and others seem to have a mentality where if you don’t follow every SINGLE thing the Church says, conscience or no, you are some sort of ****** Catholic and you might as well just join the baptists or something. Well I still consider myself to be a Catholic in all the ways that are truly important and I love my Church and I love God, so now what?
Anyway, the CC basically says that if I disagree with them on matters of conscience, then my conscience is improperly formed. O.K. So I go about trying to adjust my conscience through prayer, research and reflection and still that darned conscience is awfully stubborn. Now what? Well, some tell me that I need to practice the virtue of obedience and just do what the CC says regardless (this rings untrue to me, blindly following something I may not believe in) while others say that church teaching tells me that I am obligated to follow my conscience (which sounds right to me). Well, I can’t do both, obviously. I love my Church, I really do, but I am having much difficulty reconciling myself to this issue.
Also, If my conscience really tells me that something is not sinful (or at least mortally so) because I do not truly believe it to fall under “grave matter” after MUCH prayer and reflection, then am I still in a state of mortal sin if I follow my own conscience on the matter and not church teaching? I mean, I am not deliberately committing a mortal sin right, so the conditions are not met? Or are they? I am so confused!
I love my Church, but I am feeling increasingly frustrated. I cannot CONTROL my conscience, I can only do my due diligence in trying to form it in accordance with God’s will, which I believe I am doing/have done, but people on this site and others seem to have a mentality where if you don’t follow every SINGLE thing the Church says, conscience or no, you are some sort of ****** Catholic and you might as well just join the baptists or something. Well I still consider myself to be a Catholic in all the ways that are truly important and I love my Church and I love God, so now what?