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FaithRuir
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Hi there.
I just wanted to say something to vent for a bit.
I have serious problems with my conscience, to the point to where it leads me to sin gravely.
I have some pretty bad scruples sometimes, however they can lead me to do serious wrong. I won’t get into detail, but I would do something and then my conscience goes in red flags “You shouldn’t do this” but it could be very distant, or minuscule, but I could amplify it that way to where I can think it is something grave or has the possibility to be such. And sometimes I go through with it with full consent.
I know that wasn’t very clear, I’ll give an example
Today I was playing Smash Bros, good game to play, but then I picked a character, know the specific character design I chose was one I always used, but part of the reason for it was because the online community would always use it, and that purpose was gravely immoral (won’t delve into that).
I remembered this and so decided I wanted to pick a different design, however, I didn’t think I could. At the time I thought I had 2 options, restart the whole game, or proceed and change it later.
I had a pretty decently sized debate within me about it, basically going “The first option is shorter”, I planned to go through with it when another part of me saying “But you’re cooperating this way for longer! Just exit out to eliminate that”, then my faulty memory tells me I said afterward, “Whatever, I’ll do the first one anyway.”
In my moral contemplation i didn’t realize an easier alternative (picking a different skin), and the same happens at other times. I feel awful for these things, I fall so easily
Turns out I couldn’t change it afterward, so I restarted the game swiftly.
I think now that I’m probably in mortal sin, as I violated my conscience, with full knowledge and consent.
Similar things to this torment me often (some situations more trivial), it’s destroying me in many ways, and for personal reasons getting priestly help is difficult
I just wanted to say something to vent for a bit.
I have serious problems with my conscience, to the point to where it leads me to sin gravely.
I have some pretty bad scruples sometimes, however they can lead me to do serious wrong. I won’t get into detail, but I would do something and then my conscience goes in red flags “You shouldn’t do this” but it could be very distant, or minuscule, but I could amplify it that way to where I can think it is something grave or has the possibility to be such. And sometimes I go through with it with full consent.
I know that wasn’t very clear, I’ll give an example
Today I was playing Smash Bros, good game to play, but then I picked a character, know the specific character design I chose was one I always used, but part of the reason for it was because the online community would always use it, and that purpose was gravely immoral (won’t delve into that).
I remembered this and so decided I wanted to pick a different design, however, I didn’t think I could. At the time I thought I had 2 options, restart the whole game, or proceed and change it later.
I had a pretty decently sized debate within me about it, basically going “The first option is shorter”, I planned to go through with it when another part of me saying “But you’re cooperating this way for longer! Just exit out to eliminate that”, then my faulty memory tells me I said afterward, “Whatever, I’ll do the first one anyway.”
In my moral contemplation i didn’t realize an easier alternative (picking a different skin), and the same happens at other times. I feel awful for these things, I fall so easily
Turns out I couldn’t change it afterward, so I restarted the game swiftly.
I think now that I’m probably in mortal sin, as I violated my conscience, with full knowledge and consent.
Similar things to this torment me often (some situations more trivial), it’s destroying me in many ways, and for personal reasons getting priestly help is difficult
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