I’ve just been reading St Louis de Montfort, and I am profoundly uncomfortable with the style and level of devotion he suggests. I don’t like the idea of ‘slavery’ to Mary - that the only way to Jesus is through her. How can we have a personal relationship with Jesus if He is constantly angry with us, and we have no access to Him except through His Mother?
St Louis said that the total consecration is the surest, quickest, and easiest way. It is up to you to choose your way to go to Him, but Jesus is not going to get angry with you for your choice; however, according to the Saint, Jesus will surely be pleased if you go to His Mother as He entrusted Her to us on the Cross.
If you are a soldier of Mother Mary, you are Jesus’ soldier.
If you are Her “slave”, you are Jesus’.
For now, if you are not comfortable about it, my advice is to pray that you need and trust Her more and more. Don’t do the total consecration if you don’t believe it. At the same time, you also need to trust in Jesus that He is not going to deny you for loving and trusting His Mother; after all, He was in Her care on earth for 30 years.
I used to be uncomfortable about it, but only through praying and being patient to allow God to work in me, I have come to the consecration, and I could see the great effect of Her caring for Her children.