Dbarrie…
I bet there are a boatload of souls like you who wonder why God is leading them into the Catholic faith. I’m sure it’s confusing at times. I’m a “RE-vert” that was gone into all the other churches for about 34 years and found them wanting after a guy attacked the church about the Blessed Mother. (“You Catholics worship Mary…”

) It was that attack that got me digging into the teachings of the Catholic Church to insure that what he had said was untrue. (Though I must say that even as a fallen away Catholic I KNEW he was full of baloney {My apologies to the lunchmeat…} when he said it, told him so , and promised to prove it. He refused to listen to me or look at what I’d found when I kept my word and brought it to him. Dishonest?)
I am firmly convinced that all conversions are the work of the Holy Spirit, my own included. I have sometimes wished that I COULD be non-Catholic because to me it’s easier than Catholicism. You don’t HAVE TO go to church every Sunday…You don’t HAVE TO humble yourself and go to confession…and you don’t HAVE TO acknowlege the 2,000 years of history that gives us the Living Traditions of our faith. BTW I do all those things joyfully now because they are part of the way that I meet Christ in my life and I love it because I love Him.) All ya gotta do is show up “when the spirit moves you”, sing, say “amen”& Hallelujah" out loud and do your best to interpret the Bible all by yourself. (But for God’s sake don’t pay any attention to John 6, 1st Cor 10:16, & 11:23-29 or any of the last supper passages…oh yeah…and read around Matthew 16:13-19 or John 20:24 & 25, because you might just see the NT basis for the things that the Catholics believe. THEY JUST CAN’T BE RIGHT! NO WAY! But ya know what? Because I am commited to the truth at all costs, I HAD TO come back to the Catholic Church once I saw with my own eyes that they really are teaching the real NT Christianity. I’ve been “home” now about 3 years and I’m convinced heart, soul, mind, and body that every doctrine is true. Even more, I KNOW in my soul that when Msgr Hunt or Fr. Path or Fr. Knox lifts that big host and says “This is my body…”, that I’m looking the risen Son of God in the eye. Jesus promised it, I believe it, and (as out Prot friends say) that settles it.
Yes it’s mystical, but so what? ALL miracles are mystical…the resurrection is mystical, and salvation is mystical… CHRISTIANITY is mystical and only a fool will try to deny something so obvious.
Does any of this make sense? I’m rambling, but that’s because I’m wrapped up in the spiritual reality of Christianity. The kind that a man would lay down his life for like the early church fathers did.
Pax vobiscum,