When I became a Christian, at age 16, I became a Protestant. I was coming out of uncomfortable circumstances (which I am not going to discuss), and so I jumped hard. Hearing that the
Bible was God’s Word, I decided to learn it. I became a fundamentalist: I believed that every word was literally true.
When I went to university, I studied was seduced by
Laozi. I fell yet farther when I studied literature and learnt too much about reading.
I cannot be Protestant because I cannot accept Scripture as the ultimate source of authority when I know that every reader determines the message of the text for him-/herself. I cannot be Orthodox because I cannot accept that doctrine should never develop. I cannot be Catholic because I cannot accept the doctrine of ecclesiastical infallibility.
I de-converted, but with nowhere to go. I am, therefore, a devout heretic.