I had several moments that really stick out to me. The first came on Christmas Day at midnight mass. I had been curious about Catholicism for a while, as my boyfriend was born and raised Catholic and is very passionate about his faith. Raised in a protestant(specifically baptist) church, I was used to a casual atmosphere with some Christian contemporary music played at the beginning, a heartfelt sermon, and a collection and announcements near the end. The traditional Latin midnight mass I went to was one of the most beautiful moments I have ever experienced. As I knelt down in the pew, I listened to the choir’s incredible voices, the liturgy, and the priest’s wonderful sermon. I didn’t understand the consecration, the words, genuflections, or most of the other liturgical and symbolic actions, but I could feel the reverence and respect for God and the amazement of the sacrifice that was made for us on the cross. I didn’t understand much about Catholicism, but I knew that the experience had been life-changing.
My second “moment” came as I compared that mass to the protestant Christmas eve service I attended earlier that evening. Both groups of people seemed fully intent on worshipping God to the best of their ability, but when I compared to Gregorian chant to the drum-filled version of “God Rest Ye Merry Gentleman” and the liturgy, sacrifice, and reverence of the mass to the chattering of the congregation before and during the service, I couldn’t help but feel that something didn’t quite feel right anymore in the church I was attending.
My final moment occurred a few months after. I had learned a lot more about the doctrines of Catholicism and about the mass itself. I realized in a split second that I
wanted to go to mass. It didn’t feel like an obligation or a requirement like my old church did at times. I wanted to feel Jesus’ presence and love, the feeling of forgiveness, the feeling of peace that filled me throughout the day, and most of all, I wanted to show respect and honor someone who made the greatest sacrifice of all for me.
I’ve still got a lot of questions and several doubts about converting, but those three moments stand out strong enough to overpower any doubts
