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J_the_Centrist
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The coronavirus pandemic has left us at home and forced to remake and reshape our lives. I work in a hospital so I have to work. I am a liaison in the social work department but I have seen so much death that I feel that I am crumbling. I am heartbroken. I am ashamed to say that I drank Friday night into Saturday and I spent most of the day and last night crying and that is totally out of character for me. I couldn’t sleep last night and I am very depressed. My mother, who lives with me, knows that I was drunk and I am so disgusted with myself because alcoholism has been a huge problem in our family. I am 40 and still unmarried and have no children and I am weaker and more lonely than I have ever been in my life. I have to be strong for my family and for my patients and coworkers but I don’t know if I can. The only thing that makes me happy is that other people seem to be happy because they’re coming closer to their families and I think that’s wonderful. I am also happy that some people will become better because we are becoming reacquainted with what really matters in life. Please pray for me and Happy Easter to you all.