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Angels_Unaware
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I have seriously thought about the possibility that I am cursed. It is honestly embarrassing to say that, but there are reasons. I don’t want to go into details, but I have unusual problems, obstacles, and stressful situations in the course of my normal, day to day, personal and work business, and I have had these kinds of things in some degree for years. Everyone has problems and obstacles, but mine are unusual.
For example, in my work group people have commented on some recent things that have happened by saying things like, “I can’t believe this has happened to her, she didn’t do anything wrong and I cannot believe how bad her luck is that this really small issue is becoming so complicated.” The thing is- in this situation, you can’t really pin the blame on anyone.
What happened here was very unusual, and there are problems getting it resolved that are nothing except the wrong things going wrong at the wrong time and in the wrong way. It’s like things just come together to make a problem, in the opposite way that things just work out for other people.
This happens constantly in my personal business, too. I have a complicated problem with a creditor that I have a perfect payment history with right now, and the creditor is lying, breaking the law, and relying on me not being able to take legal action for reasons that have to do with how the system works. I am still trying to take legal action, but the point is the existence of this type of problem to begin with. I have spent months cordially requesting in a very clear and matter of fact way that the problem be resolved, (and it is a simple, black and white problem, not an argument) and the result is silence and refusal to take action.
My first reaction to these problems is never, “I am cursed”, but “somehow it’s my fault”. I don’t want to be cursed, and I feel great guilt for somehow not doing the right thing somewhere along the line and causing the problem.
Over time, though, the idea has struck me that something just isn’t right. I really shouldn’t have this many problems, and they shouldn’t all be this difficult to get resolved.
And again, I think, well what I am doing wrong. What can I do different. What should I do next time. Then something really unexpected and complicated happens once again.
I honestly don’t know. On the one hand, I wonder if I am just feeling sorry for myself. On the other hand, other people have had the same reaction, and actually say, you have more than your share of these kinds of things.
Even if you don’t have advice, please say a prayer for me if you have the time, I would greatly appreciate it.
For example, in my work group people have commented on some recent things that have happened by saying things like, “I can’t believe this has happened to her, she didn’t do anything wrong and I cannot believe how bad her luck is that this really small issue is becoming so complicated.” The thing is- in this situation, you can’t really pin the blame on anyone.
What happened here was very unusual, and there are problems getting it resolved that are nothing except the wrong things going wrong at the wrong time and in the wrong way. It’s like things just come together to make a problem, in the opposite way that things just work out for other people.
This happens constantly in my personal business, too. I have a complicated problem with a creditor that I have a perfect payment history with right now, and the creditor is lying, breaking the law, and relying on me not being able to take legal action for reasons that have to do with how the system works. I am still trying to take legal action, but the point is the existence of this type of problem to begin with. I have spent months cordially requesting in a very clear and matter of fact way that the problem be resolved, (and it is a simple, black and white problem, not an argument) and the result is silence and refusal to take action.
My first reaction to these problems is never, “I am cursed”, but “somehow it’s my fault”. I don’t want to be cursed, and I feel great guilt for somehow not doing the right thing somewhere along the line and causing the problem.
Over time, though, the idea has struck me that something just isn’t right. I really shouldn’t have this many problems, and they shouldn’t all be this difficult to get resolved.
And again, I think, well what I am doing wrong. What can I do different. What should I do next time. Then something really unexpected and complicated happens once again.
I honestly don’t know. On the one hand, I wonder if I am just feeling sorry for myself. On the other hand, other people have had the same reaction, and actually say, you have more than your share of these kinds of things.
Even if you don’t have advice, please say a prayer for me if you have the time, I would greatly appreciate it.