First, I am certainly no expert in theology but I believe doubt is good in a Faith journey. It causes you to dig and find the truth by yourself. Blind Faith is not worth much when a crisis hits. Some turn and run away in despair. Some, like you, run toward God for answers. You have made a good choice. You will be rewarded. Many times when I have had doubts it is rooted in my disappointment rather than much else. How could this happen to me? How could God allow THAT to happen? They are good Catholics, why are they suffering? I could go on. First thing I did was look to Protestants who converted to our faith, Scott Hahn, Jimmy Akin, Alan Hunt, and Tim Staples. These were not just Protestants but church leaders in their old faiths. How could they switch from being a protestant pastor to Catholic? Allen Hunt was Pastor of a MegaChurch! If they saw something I wanted to see it (that is my position and I am sticking to it… it was not because they had all done the research for me and saved me months of digging… I promise.) Her are some links that might help. I will include blogs and video links below. JUst search the names and tons of stuff will come up. Special note - I have found that sometimes our suffering is not about us… it is about how we react AND who is watching us react. The New Testament promises from Jesus’ lips really only promise “Peace”, not comfort or happiness… I also usually found my faith drifting when I tried to help God rather than being patient and waiting for him to do his work. It is done in his own time, not ours. Usually this means once I give up and get angry with God He allows things to happen and I realize my failure to trust him. He also seems to get pleasure in proving I still lack complete Faith and Trust in Him. I am working to trust more. God is good and God is always God. Things we blame God for “allowing” are usually things that man actually caused, developed, sold or inserted in the the world on our own.
jimmyakin.com/ catholic.com/video/browse/all/all/Tim%20Staples catholic.com/video/browse/all/all/Jimmy%20Akin georgiabulletin.org/local/2008/03/27/hunt/ This is a great start… he is a very easy and fun read allen hunt
chnetwork.org/2011/11/3-treasures-of-the-church-conversion-story-of-allen-hunt/
May Jesus guide you as you uncover the riches of the Catholic Church. Every time I have doubted truth was revealed and I was more convinced than ever that I was in the Church Jesus founded and has protected (in spite of the humans who make up the Church, sinners every one, me included… very included). Here is the thing that removed all doubt for me… it is not in the canon of scripture but is traced back to the very earliest followers of Jesus… and it very much matches how we do things today. It doesn’t match any other Faith’s worship services… just ours… here is a link… Dig into this simple and short document… watch the video here first…
catholic.com/video/what-is-the-didache then here is the actual document…
newadvent.org/cathen/04779a.htm My