Dealing with the after effects of childhood abuse

[Mary67]

I’ve posted here before about my abusive family, but after the news about the sex abuse in the church, it made me remember my own possible childhood sexual assault. When I was around 8 or 9, my teenage brother made myself and our other younger sibling expose ourselves. No touching occurred, but I never told my parents because when it happened once before my mom scolded all of us even though I didn’t want to do it.

I don’t see myself bringing this up with either my brother or my parents, but I’m realizing I have internalized the shame from this incident and I’m not really sure what to call it or how to approach it emotionally or spiritually.

My brother is the “golden” child of the family and I have been pushed out of the family because I have brought up other childhood abuses that have affected me developmentally into adulthood which my parents don’t want to take responsibility for. I don’t think discussing this with them will end well since I am usually told I am either lying or confused. Does this incident qualify as sexual assault and how should I deal with it?

 

[Roseeurekacross]

This is a situation for a professional health worker.
It’s not for strangers on the internet to decide this.

You could get answers that are very damaging.

 

[alphawoman]

I agree. Make sure you see a therapist who specializes in adults recovering from childhood abuse, because you’ll be best served by an expert.

God bless you!!

 

[Mary67]

Every mental health professional I have seen has been useless. I want answers and all they do is push me to do things Im not ready to do or give really bad advice which makes me want to give up all together. I understand your points though. Thank you for your replies.