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Lady_Love
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The past few years I have felt like I was in a black cloud of deceptions. Temptations to adhere to this spirituality or that spirituality. I think it is referred to as the “dizzy spirit,” you can’t quite know for sure what is true or a deception.
I kept thinking while in my confused state, “It can’t be this complicated to be in right relationship with God. There has to be a simpler way.” I can get so easily swept up in the “latest” technique to, in all reality, avoid suffering and “have an experience.” I find it so disturbing how easily I wander after anything that sparkles or has a "feel good’ message.
What got me started on this was I was checking up on the heresy of Quietism. It is a false mysticism which could easily lead one astray. With so much of Quietism resembling contemplation it would be so easy to run a muck. I must say, the devil is cunning. The good thing is that if the devil is offering you Quietism, then God is most definitely calling you to genuine mysticism. Otherwise, the devil would not be trying to offer you a counterfeit.
Anyhow, I got thinking. How can I ever be sure then that the path I’m on is the right path? I came to this conclusion; if I want to know the way, I must not examine myself, nor my neighbor, nor other philosophies, but the person of Jesus. I need to pull out my bible and hang on His every word, His every action, His every response, His every emotion, I need to know the person of Jesus inside and out. I need to watch when and how He prayed, how often He prayed, where He prayed, when He takes action and when He rests. Examine why He responds with anger and insults with some people and not others. I think I have been so missing the boat by concerning myself with where I am going and how I am going to get there rather than enjoying my Divine company. I’ve been so obsessed and pre-occupied with the destination that I’m taking my Spouse for granted. Do I REALLY know Jesus. I know I knew Him when we first fell in love but do I still try to get to know Him more? Do I still see Him?
This brings me to the blind man who heard that Jesus was passing by and cried out, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me.” I have skipped over this passage glibly so many times thinking, “yeah, yeah, I’ve heard this, I know this already.” But I read it differently, I am the blind man so desperate to see Jesus. Not to see per se, but to see Jesus. Jesus says to him, “What would you have me do?” The blind man says, “I want to see.” What does he want to see? Jesus. He wants to see Jesus.
I am blind Jesus. I want to see You and only You.
Can anyone relate to what I am saying?
I kept thinking while in my confused state, “It can’t be this complicated to be in right relationship with God. There has to be a simpler way.” I can get so easily swept up in the “latest” technique to, in all reality, avoid suffering and “have an experience.” I find it so disturbing how easily I wander after anything that sparkles or has a "feel good’ message.
What got me started on this was I was checking up on the heresy of Quietism. It is a false mysticism which could easily lead one astray. With so much of Quietism resembling contemplation it would be so easy to run a muck. I must say, the devil is cunning. The good thing is that if the devil is offering you Quietism, then God is most definitely calling you to genuine mysticism. Otherwise, the devil would not be trying to offer you a counterfeit.
Anyhow, I got thinking. How can I ever be sure then that the path I’m on is the right path? I came to this conclusion; if I want to know the way, I must not examine myself, nor my neighbor, nor other philosophies, but the person of Jesus. I need to pull out my bible and hang on His every word, His every action, His every response, His every emotion, I need to know the person of Jesus inside and out. I need to watch when and how He prayed, how often He prayed, where He prayed, when He takes action and when He rests. Examine why He responds with anger and insults with some people and not others. I think I have been so missing the boat by concerning myself with where I am going and how I am going to get there rather than enjoying my Divine company. I’ve been so obsessed and pre-occupied with the destination that I’m taking my Spouse for granted. Do I REALLY know Jesus. I know I knew Him when we first fell in love but do I still try to get to know Him more? Do I still see Him?
This brings me to the blind man who heard that Jesus was passing by and cried out, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me.” I have skipped over this passage glibly so many times thinking, “yeah, yeah, I’ve heard this, I know this already.” But I read it differently, I am the blind man so desperate to see Jesus. Not to see per se, but to see Jesus. Jesus says to him, “What would you have me do?” The blind man says, “I want to see.” What does he want to see? Jesus. He wants to see Jesus.
I am blind Jesus. I want to see You and only You.
Can anyone relate to what I am saying?
