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MerryAtheist
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It started with anger over the way the sex scandals were handled.How did you go from being Catholic to atheist?
My questioning the actions of the Church leadership, while alone not enough to make me lose faith, did prompt me to seek answers to other, more fundamental questions, like “Where does the authority of the Church come from and why did they fail so badly in this case?”
In my searching for answers, I did a LOT of reading and soul-searching, and I eventually came to believe that the Church was not, in fact, founded by Jesus. While this may not seem like a big deal (I am convinced one can have this view and still be a catholic), it was a big turning point for me because it showed me just how much of Catholicism I had accepted uncritically. After that “revelation”, I began to question everything from the teaching authority of the Church, to major dogmas (Mary, the Trinity, the Holy Spirit, etc.). My research wasn’t based on just non-catholic sources, either, I read many catholic apologetical works along with the Catechism, and I believe I weighed all the information fairly before coming to the decision that, for me, Catholicism no longer made sense; it no longer had relevence for me.
Upon losing my faith in the Church, I began questioning my belief in Christianity using the same methods of researching both sides. Again, the result was a loss of faith in the Jesus story.
What followed was the inevitable examination of the question of God. The big question: Does God Exist? Again, after a rational examination of all the arguments pro and con, I was forced to realize that, while I could not prove with 100% certainty that God did not exist, the arguments in favor of God did not measure up to the arguments against, at least in my mind.
All the decisions to believe in God, Christ, the Church etc. must be based on faith. I was forced to conclude that I no longer had that faith (if indeed I ever had it in the first place).
Therefore, I became an atheist.
I don’t claim to “know” or even “believe” that God does not exist. I only claim to have no belief in his existence based on what I know and have learned about the world.
I do not regret leaving the Church. The world and the universe are subjects of great wonder and curiosity to me, far beyond what I ever felt towards my faith. And my brief life is even more precious to me now that I know it is the only one I’ll ever have.
Anyway, that’s the short version of my apostasy.