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Stella_Luna_Sol
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I struggle with anxiety and depression on a daily basis. My mood alternates from day to day. Sometimes I’m anxious and I can’t do anything productive, other times I’m sad and crying constantly. Some days, like today, I am angry and hateful and I despise people. What I am most upset about today is the fact that people are hypocrites - all people. Many Christians say that they love people like Jesus loved them, yet they condemn and judge others who sin or do things differently.
I made a post earlier about how I’m going through a spiritual struggle and I’m trying to decide if the Truth lies in Catholicism or not. A conversion process is a long and scary road, I understand this, but I realized today that one of the things I fear the most is that I will lose the respect of my (mostly atheist) friends if I do become Catholic. Atheists and agnostics are hypocrites too, because while many of them claim to respect all religions and spiritual practices, this list excludes Christianity, and particularly Catholicism. I’m sure that many of you will say something like, “Oh, if they don’t accept you for who you are, they’re not your real friends, anyway.”
Please tell that to a homosexual who has his entire family abandon him because he comes out, or to a fundamentalist evangelical who is shunned by his entire community because he does something petty that invokes his church’s disapproval. It’s not like friends and family just grow on trees and people can just say “Screw 'em, I’ll just go to the store and get new ones!” Relationships are emotional investments that many people try to nurture carefully, and they don’t feel they can afford to just lose half of their stock of trusted individuals. People in the world are generally horrible enough that they try very hard to hold on to the “decent” ones they find. At least, that’s how I see it.
I am just very upset and I hate people because no matter what side of the religion/no religion spectrum they’re on, they will always be judgmental of someone who converts another way or otherwise thinks differently from them. EVERYONE is basically intolerant, EVERYONE will lose respect for someone who doesn’t agree with them. I don’t know how I can function when I have to share a planet with other humans who are untrustworthy, unloving, and uncaring.
I realize that I’m just being bombarded by negative feelings, but I don’t know what I can do to make them go away. For your information, I am on medication, and I do see a counselor, but he’s an older man and he’s just unhelpful. He just says “Well, people are this way, you have to deal with it.” I need prayers, please, because I have a lot of trouble praying myself. I don’t know what else to do to get this to stop. I just want it to stop.
Thank you.
I made a post earlier about how I’m going through a spiritual struggle and I’m trying to decide if the Truth lies in Catholicism or not. A conversion process is a long and scary road, I understand this, but I realized today that one of the things I fear the most is that I will lose the respect of my (mostly atheist) friends if I do become Catholic. Atheists and agnostics are hypocrites too, because while many of them claim to respect all religions and spiritual practices, this list excludes Christianity, and particularly Catholicism. I’m sure that many of you will say something like, “Oh, if they don’t accept you for who you are, they’re not your real friends, anyway.”
Please tell that to a homosexual who has his entire family abandon him because he comes out, or to a fundamentalist evangelical who is shunned by his entire community because he does something petty that invokes his church’s disapproval. It’s not like friends and family just grow on trees and people can just say “Screw 'em, I’ll just go to the store and get new ones!” Relationships are emotional investments that many people try to nurture carefully, and they don’t feel they can afford to just lose half of their stock of trusted individuals. People in the world are generally horrible enough that they try very hard to hold on to the “decent” ones they find. At least, that’s how I see it.
I am just very upset and I hate people because no matter what side of the religion/no religion spectrum they’re on, they will always be judgmental of someone who converts another way or otherwise thinks differently from them. EVERYONE is basically intolerant, EVERYONE will lose respect for someone who doesn’t agree with them. I don’t know how I can function when I have to share a planet with other humans who are untrustworthy, unloving, and uncaring.
I realize that I’m just being bombarded by negative feelings, but I don’t know what I can do to make them go away. For your information, I am on medication, and I do see a counselor, but he’s an older man and he’s just unhelpful. He just says “Well, people are this way, you have to deal with it.” I need prayers, please, because I have a lot of trouble praying myself. I don’t know what else to do to get this to stop. I just want it to stop.
Thank you.
