Depression, this time especially bad

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Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
Praying for you.
Remember Jesus loves you.
Please don’t give up, God gives hope all the time.

He gives power to the weak.
Isaiah 40:29

BNL
 
Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
My GP put me on Mirtazapine. I was surprised when he told me that I might have to take them for 6 months. At first it worked well and it stabilized my mood swings. But I found that I had to take stronger doses until eventually I got hooked on them and found myself becoming a vegetable. After eight months I tried quitting Mirtazapine and became violently ill. I found that they totally wrecked my immune system. It took me 3 months more before I started to get my life back.
Depression is a real killer. It destroys your ability to switch yourself on. I couldn’t do anything. I’d say to myself, “Today I’m going to clean my flat“, and then I sit for hours upon end just thinking about where to get started. Then as soon as I started on just emptying out the trash I’d go straight back to sitting again and try to plan it out again. Start with the laundry instead, or the kitchen sink or just cleaning the desk. Its a vicious spiral. You just can’t get started. It’s like a car on a cold winters morning with the starter motor going round and round until you drain the battery.

Now the way that I cured myself of depression eventually was by understanding that I was really ill and that the cause of my illness was in my heart. I realized that I wasn’t in love with God anymore, and that I was an idolater. I worshiped at the high alter of Mathematics. It might sound strange to some people to think of Mathematics as being a false God, but trust me it is. So one day, I just said to myself, “Limit yourself” and that has become my daily prayer. Actually it was God telling this.

I have since understood that my Depression was because I was trying to make a miracle happen all by myself. In short I though that I was God. I thought that I could do it all by myself. So the “Limit yourself” strategy gave me the chance to give up trying so hard to be happy. In a sense I could say that Depression has taught me that it’s not natural to be happy. People that think that the pursuit of happiness is a God given right haven’t read their bible. Also its taught me that the big-D will never go away. It’s ingrained on my character and its the cross that I have to bare.

Sorry to sound so glum about the prospect of a cure, but if you really need a life saver then my advice is to half fill your bath tub at night, and when you wake up in the morning to chuck yourself into it and baptized yourself every day. The idea being that you give yourself shock therapy first thing every day so that whatever the day has to throw at you is nothing in comparison to that morning plunge.
 
StranraerHibby said:
Hi everyone,

My life is a bit of a roller coaster at the moment. I suffer from depression and was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder back in March.

I have the support of a fantastic GP. I saw her yesterday and felt great - today I had to go back and see her and I was all over the place - requesting tablets that I can’t have, telling her I didn’t want to live and just being really difficult.

She set me straight and I feel better but I don’t know how long for.

I’ve tried several different tablets and the ones I am currently taking may take up to 8 weeks to work so I need to persevere I guess.

Please pray for me at this difficult time, I need to get back to mass and make a commitment to the church.

Any responses would be greatly appreciated.

God bless,

Andrew
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Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginnning, is now and ever shall be, now and the hour of hour death, Amen

St Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle, be our safeguard against THE WILES AND WICKEDNESS OF THE DEVIL, restrain him O God we humbly pray and do thou O prince of the heavenly host, cast into hell satan and all evil spirits who prowl about the world seeking the ruin and destruction of souls. Amen
 
On the positive side however I found that when I owned up to it and candidly explained to my friends at church why I had not being going to mass for a long time I found that they were not only very understanding but that furthermore a few also owned up to having undergone the same crisis in their lives in the past. Mostly older women, but one man also admitted to me in private that he was in the same position as I had being in and was thinking of quitting his medication. But most people were polite but just didn’t want to know. Too much information! That’s the problem with depression. You wouldn’t guess by just looking at someone if they have it or not. The people that were surprised when I admitted to having it mostly said the same thing “But you always looked so chirpy” they mussed, and they couldn’t understand it and felt a little embarrassed about hearing my confession. It was almost as if they knew what I was talking about but that they had their own way of dealing with it, which might be blind faith.

So you see I totally understand the fact that Depression has the side effect of making you miss mass for sometimes months on end, and I had a major problem with this myself. But as it happened I went to a different confessor and to my surprise I found that the Holy Spirit gave me a clean slate because I could confess a sin that was bugging me for a long time which I couldn’t tell my old confessor because he always insisted upon my not bring up the past all over again.

So maybe the cause of your Depression might be that God is asking you to move onto new things because you have got stuck on the place where you are and don’t want to leave it. Maybe you should take a look at the book of Jonah again? Who knows! Maybe you have a vocation? Anything is possible with God!
 
Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
StranraerHibby said:
Hi everyone,

My life is a bit of a roller coaster at the moment. I suffer from depression and was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder back in March.

I have the support of a fantastic GP. I saw her yesterday and felt great - today I had to go back and see her and I was all over the place - requesting tablets that I can’t have, telling her I didn’t want to live and just being really difficult.

She set me straight and I feel better but I don’t know how long for.

I’ve tried several different tablets and the ones I am currently taking may take up to 8 weeks to work so I need to persevere I guess.

Please pray for me at this difficult time, I need to get back to mass and make a commitment to the church.

Any responses would be greatly appreciated.

God bless,

Andrew
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Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession and was left unaided. Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful O Mother of the Word incarnate despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me.
Amen
 
Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
Praying for you. I’ve experienced similar things and know how hard the struggle can be.
 
Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
Praying for you, Andrew…

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O most beautiful Flower of Mount Carmel, Fruitful Vine, Splendor of Heaven, who brought forth the Son of God still remaining a Virgin, assist us in this necessity. O Star of the Sea, help us, and show us that you are our Mother.

O Holy Mary, Mother of God, Queen of Heaven and earth, I humbly ask you from the depths of my heart to help in this necessity. There are none who can withstand your power. O show us that you are our Mother.

O Mary conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to you.
Sweet Mother, I place this cause in your hands. Amen
 
Hail Mary, full of grace the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
now and at the hour of our death. Amen.
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Mother Mary, please go to Andrew and wrap your loving arms around him. Please ask our Lord to relieve his pain and shower love and blessings upon him. Please send him angelic protection and help to get back to mass.

St. Joseph, St. Andre, St. Dymphna, please ask our Lord to provide Andrew healing for this depression and personality disorder.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us oh Holy Mother of God that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.
 
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