I thought Christians were suppose to be happy. Why do I still have depression?
I ask myself that question a lot as I pop my anti-depressants every day. You aren’t the only one.
However, if circumstances in your life aren’t “happy”, then it’s a false expectation to expect to be “happy”. It’s realistic to expect a mourning period to deal with your losses (whatever they are).
I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time, but a lot of that has come from things like letting go of the past; finding joy in a new activity; changing my expectations…
Job wasn’t immune from depression.
Neither was Elisha.
Jonah could feel sorry for himself with the best of them.
I’m sure that some of our favorite Saints struggled with this issue as well.
I don’t want to be trite and say “Cheer up!”, but the thing is that it’s a lie that Christians are always happy. And who tells us lies? You’re right if you answered Satan…
We all have issues to work through. Everyone has different temperaments and some people just don’t feel things as deeply as others. What would make me depressed might just make someone else feel just mildly sad or someone else just shrug off what’s going on as “oh, well…what’s next?”
This time of year is awful in my state because everything is gray and muddy and the leaves are off the trees and on the ground. Still, thank God for vitamins and my meds. I’m having a great fall despite the grayness around me. (Hopefully, I can still say that tomorrow! All feelings are subject to change w/o notice or warning!) However, I spend a lot of my emotional energy forcing myself not to dwell on the gross weather and the general state of ickiness that comes with fall and early winter in my part of the world. It’s really a struggle to try to remain positive.
All I’m trying to say is that you aren’t alone. A lot of us struggle with depression - even though we love Jesus! Peace be with you.
P.S. Writing this out has helped me focus more on the good things than the bad.
