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AlanFromWichita
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I know what you mean by desire every day. Plus, lately I’ve started being able to actually feel that experience on a frequent basis, usually many times per day. The trick was to learn a healthy way to grieve. I have had to grieve many things in the past five months including my older brother who died with no warning – they found him at his computer desk at age 55, in July, and since my mother has been near death herself and is now recovering from a stroke she got while in the hospital being treated for another problem.
There is much more to the story but it’s very long.
Some might think I’d be miserable, but actually I’m getting more servings of peace and joy on an hourly basis than I used to get in a year. Why? With all of this grieving, especially with some timely emails with teachings about grieving, I ended up losing my mental ties to many things that I had lost and the grieving of them was holding me back. With each thing that was removed without my being able to keep them, I was losing a little bit of my false self, and thus opening myself up to healing and comfort the Lord was kind enough to pour in.
So here I am.
Maybe you should study some about grieving if you’re so fascinated. You can grieve over anything you are attached to and lose – even a thought you really wanted to tell a person but you can’t think of it right then when you have your only chance to tell them ever – you will learn to let go of it and trust the Spirit will give you the words if you need them again, let go and get about moving forward, and likely you will forget the whole thing even happened as soon as immediately after you decide to let it go. That’s one way to get selective memory working in our favor.
Actually, you can grieve with other people or on their behalf. You can grieve over changes in other people that you don’t even want to tell them you noticed. This actually works both ways; you can change for the better and still grieve over the lost lifestyle you were in before the change. Any change can be grieved. You can listen to a breakup song or read fiction and grieve over the depicted losses or even grieve over something in an imaginary scenario you thought up. Or how about when you are pleased with a decision you finally made, then later find out it won’t work out that way and there is no alternative plan. You can grieve over the loss of your intellectual property, your pet’s death, getting rid of an old toy, or the song you used to know for memory on the piano. How about grieving a lack of changes, like the empty nest syndrome when one day is just like another?
I’ve long liked this verse from Miracles out of Nowhere by Kansas:
Tell me now dear mother, what’s it like to be so old
Children grown and leavin’, seems the world is growin’ cold
And though your body’s ailin’ you
Your mind is just like new
Tell me where you’re goin’ to
If you want to go the next step, why don’t you consider talking to hospice people and learning about and maybe even starting a career in helping people through end of life issues? Maybe they even have openings for volunteers?
Go ahead and live your life in abundance, the way Jesus told Us He came to enable us to do. It’s a gift; accept it, enjoy it, and it will take you far. By the time God’s done with your worldly life, you will be spiritually dressed and ready to join him at the banquet with minimal purgatory if any, then continuing on to whatever it is a soul does with God for all eternity.
Alan
edit: oops I just noticed I was writing as if to the OP but it wasn’t the OP, so if it seems misdirected that’s because it is.
That’s not it at all!! I just want Jesus to say, “well done, good and faithful servant” once I am there…right now I don’t know if I would hear that. I am not sure what friends are called in heaven!!