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Miriam_Adelaide
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I am desperate for prayers. I do not yet want to open up to my family so I am begging anyone who reads this to please pray for me and my husband. We have been married less than two years and I am three months along with our first baby. I feel like my life is falling to pieces. My husband has been unemployed for 6 months. He has his masters but his field is very short on jobs. I have been the main breadwinner throughout all our marriage so far. 8 weeks ago, I quit my job which I was very unhappy with, with plans on pursuing another that was much better suited to me. However 3 days after I stopped working I began getting terrible morning sickness and found out I was pregnant. My morning sickness has been severe and anti-nausea medications do not work for me. I have also developed nerve pain in my leg that makes it difficult for me to walk. I have been unable to get another job.
We have 1 & 1/2 months left before we run out of savings. I am on the government pregnancy insurance thank God. Yesterday we signed up for food stamps. We are not eligible for any other government assistance.
All of this I could handle, if we had a loving supportive marriage. But the stress has made my husband distant and angry. The last several months I have struggled through several bouts with depression. I feel as if there is no joy in life and in my marriage. Marriage with my husband has been so much harder than I ever imagined. I find myself wishing we had never married. I feel hopeless and numb. I know things could be so much worse, and I know others have had to bear much bigger crosses. I beat myself up for being so weak, especially for our unborn baby. I feel so selfish and useless for not being stronger.
Please pray for us. It is so hard to be hopeful.
We have 1 & 1/2 months left before we run out of savings. I am on the government pregnancy insurance thank God. Yesterday we signed up for food stamps. We are not eligible for any other government assistance.
All of this I could handle, if we had a loving supportive marriage. But the stress has made my husband distant and angry. The last several months I have struggled through several bouts with depression. I feel as if there is no joy in life and in my marriage. Marriage with my husband has been so much harder than I ever imagined. I find myself wishing we had never married. I feel hopeless and numb. I know things could be so much worse, and I know others have had to bear much bigger crosses. I beat myself up for being so weak, especially for our unborn baby. I feel so selfish and useless for not being stronger.
Please pray for us. It is so hard to be hopeful.