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I need your prayers. Im in a deep depression and anxiety. I’ve made poor and regretful decisions in life. The only way I fall asleep is with sleeping pills. First time posting. I use to enjoy reading threads in this forum and said a few prayers for other people that asked for help. I’ve never been this desperate in my life before. I’m coming off of drug abuse. I used steroids for about 3 months and I’m withdrawing. I sometimes have the feeling of just wanting to be dead. I never thout I would feel this way from using steroids. I have a 14 month old son and A girlfriend who I never had the courage to marry because I’ve always had someone else on the side. I’ve had 2 other girls that I lied and seduced just to have sex with them. My girlfriend has no idea. One of the girls was 18. Im 33. For some reason I feel I have to turn here for help. I believe in god and love Jesus but I’ve been living my life without care for sins. A lot of bad events have been happening in the past 4 years. I got fired 3 years ago and then fell into a depression and didn’t start working again till recently. I survived cause I still live with my parents and had a lot of money saved up. A few days ago I called the suicide hotline because I couldn’t take the pain anymore. I wanted to be dead but I would never have the courage to kill myself. It’s just a strong feeling to be dead. I’m turning here for prayers. For help. I go to church but I feel dark. Nobody knows I’m suffering. I haven’t confessed lately. I’m catholic and love being catholic. If anyone is listening can you pray for me. I’m in pain. This is the lowest point in my life.
