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moonlight87
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Hello,
First of all I would like to apologize for my English.
Last week I went to a silent retreat of the Charismatic renewal. Initially I was a bit suspicious but I actually found out that the people there had a very deep faith and God really spoke in my heart.
We received 3 Bible verses and we were instructed to invoke the Holy spirit to speak to us.
We had spiritual direction as well.
I’ve had a very strong experience, that God showed to me that all earthly things are nothing in comparation with heaven and that in order to live this spiritual life, this heaven on earth, I have to detach from certain things I want to hold on to. I gave up so much for the Lord already and have grown so much in Love, but the Lord told me that he calls me to detach. I follow a very healthy diet which is my main interest besides my faith and I always said to the Lord that by the time I will make vows within a religious community, I will let go. I heard the Lord saying, I want you to start letting go already. As long as you seek wordly things you can not live the life I attended you for while still on earth (I am talking about the spiritual life, the heaven on earth that many saints experienced when they died to themselves so perfectly). I experienced how sweet this is. How infinite but back home, I start to resist. I find it so hard. I feel like I am not capable. It is so strong and it is so big what the Lord is asks.
I was thinking that the only way for me to attain this is to actually join a religious order but as of now it is not possible. So how does one, while remaining in the world, detach?
First of all I would like to apologize for my English.
Last week I went to a silent retreat of the Charismatic renewal. Initially I was a bit suspicious but I actually found out that the people there had a very deep faith and God really spoke in my heart.
We received 3 Bible verses and we were instructed to invoke the Holy spirit to speak to us.
We had spiritual direction as well.
I’ve had a very strong experience, that God showed to me that all earthly things are nothing in comparation with heaven and that in order to live this spiritual life, this heaven on earth, I have to detach from certain things I want to hold on to. I gave up so much for the Lord already and have grown so much in Love, but the Lord told me that he calls me to detach. I follow a very healthy diet which is my main interest besides my faith and I always said to the Lord that by the time I will make vows within a religious community, I will let go. I heard the Lord saying, I want you to start letting go already. As long as you seek wordly things you can not live the life I attended you for while still on earth (I am talking about the spiritual life, the heaven on earth that many saints experienced when they died to themselves so perfectly). I experienced how sweet this is. How infinite but back home, I start to resist. I find it so hard. I feel like I am not capable. It is so strong and it is so big what the Lord is asks.
I was thinking that the only way for me to attain this is to actually join a religious order but as of now it is not possible. So how does one, while remaining in the world, detach?